Monday, December 31, 2007
From my website...
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Ummm..... my latest card.....
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Instant Replay Of Christmas
7:15am "Mommy? Mommy? I made you coffee" First thought: Rut roh, is this gonna be like when she was little and you had to eat the burnt toast and runny eggs and drink weak coffee? Second thought: Mmmmm, my baby is growing up! To her: "Hey! This is good! From her: "Yay! I wasn't sure, you know...." Smiles.
7:30am Cory, Rhia & I sitting in living room, stockings on our lap. Waiting.....
7:40am To the dog: Go get Daddy! Go get him! Dog: ruff, ruff, bark, bark, jump all over us. Stupid dog.
7:45am Cory: I'm opening something whether he comes down or not. Big discussion amongst us, tradition, rules, courtesy, oh go ahead it's Christmas.... Finally a bleary eyed large man appears. It's Christmas.
8:10am Cory, looking around at all the ripped up wrapping papers, boxes and ribbons, announces: "I'm going back to bed." We all begin to protest but realize that might be a good idea.
9:00am I look up and realize no one has gone anywhere, it's completely silent and all are engrossed in reading their new books or playing with their new toys. Mmmmm, Christmas.... Reluctantly, I get up and start to make breakfast for us all and Barry's mom and his brother, Bill.
10:00am I go up to my altar, do a short reading, wash my face, give thanks.
11:00am Breakfast
2:00pm They go. Back to playing with our new toys. Yay!
3:30pm Convince Barry that the only true gift I need is for him to watch my new "Pride & Prejuidice" movie with me. Awake. The whole time. No Snoring!!! He agrees reluctantly and with a few nudges is successful for the most part but he finds an escape:
6:00pm Barry made dinner! First time ever, a holiday dinner! Me, feeling luxurious.... doing dishes, wondering if maybe I had chosen wisely all the other years. Cooking vs. Dishes.... get to the greasy ham roasting pan and decide cooking much easier... And funner...
7:00pm Cory & Rhia battling each other with their new Zelda game. Barry & I battling with a good game of Rook. Dog & Cat battling each other, just cuz.... I look around, see the lights, feel the warmth.
In spite of everything and because of everything, it was a very merry Christmas.
Off to work now :) Have a great day!
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
Schedules
So far, this month from December 1 to now, the 21st, I have taught 21 group and private classes. Each one has been different. Now if it were one a day, that would be a different matter but it's 2, sometimes even 3 a day with weekends off. I have to say once again, Wow! What a great gift God has given me! I am amazed that it just keeps coming through, class after class, day after day. It's so important to me that yoga stay fresh, that we don't just go through the motions, that it feels new each time. I study endlessly, finding new ways of doing the poses, I mean, there really aren't that many poses to begin with but we just keep making up new ones just like the ancient yogis did. This is great. I just feel so blessed. To get paid for your passion-- is this a great country or what?
Today is my last class before Christmas. I suppose when I get home I will finally have to tackle all the stuff that I couldn't get to (or didn't want to) in the last few weeks. Time to come back to reality. I do think my Christmas gift to myself will be to go without my glasses for the next week. If I can't see the dirt..... I don't have to clean it, right?
Christmas dinner is still up in the air. Who knows which way the wind will blow? Mariah?
When you wait as long as I did to shop, the interesting thing is that nothing is scheduled to arrive til the 24th. Should make for some last minute wrapping excitement....and the 'is it going to make it on time?' drama.
Good times.
My heart and energy goes out to all the postal and fedex and ups deliverers.... It's almost done :)
Thursday, December 20, 2007
2 new cards


It's Rhia. It is so Rhia. I've been carrying around the image for awhile, just something about it seems so Rhia. The joy and "old soulness". It pixelated funny on the scanner unfortunately but it's a great card. I love it. Both of them. All of them.
Haven't found a great image for Cory yet but I know it will come. I'm going to wait for Barry & Rhia to come up in a reading before I do the "I am the One who..." exercise with their cards. Can't wait to see what they have to say!
Ooops, off to the next private class!!! We wish you a merry Christmas, we wish you a ...... well, you get the drift!
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Fine. I'll Shop.
So here's where I'm at. Done with Barry. Cory, sort of. Short on Rhia.
And nothing else.
Well, cept for Suki, my dog. Her present is under the tree. Ha ha, she can't get it open. It's the small things that amuse me.
My niece, Amanda, who's birthday is tomorrow Holla!, spends a lot of time at our house. When she was little, my brother and his family lived right next door. We were having a birthday party for .......... not sure, one of the little ones..... and Amanda really liked cake. Stop me if you've heard this one... Anyway, NOT anywho, we all sang happy birthday to the lucky birthday person and had some cake and some good times. An hour or so later we found Amanda on our stairs looking very forlorn and downcast.
"Amanda, what's wrong?"
Amanda, writhing on the steps like only a 4 year old can do, "welllllll, I 'd like some more cake but my mom says I can't want it...."
"you can't want it?" giggling
"No, Aunt Linna, my mom says!"
"Mom says what?"
Amanda, getting agitated, "I can't WANT it, I can't WANT it! " Breaks into song "I just can't want it, I just can't want it, tra la la, I just can't WANT it!"
I can't want Christmas shopping no more. I just can't want it.
I have thought of you many, many times though. And believe me, it is the thought that counts.
Love to all of you!
Monday, December 17, 2007
Christmas
We made cookies -Rhia & Amanda make Peppermint Balls
Yep, even Cory helped!
And then Carolers Came!
They asked for requests and of course, we asked for "Oh Holy Night" It was beautiful! High notes and all :)
Homestead to see the trains and get some greenery to go with what I have growing in my yard...
Which led to my Advent Wreath.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Is This The Real Life?
I know that it is my own unique form of procrastinating. There is always some obstacle in the way. Other people's issues, holidays, renovations, children's stuff, time, time, time, shows, finances, desk space, world events.... ai yi yi.
It is particularly bad right now. I feel stuck. I have so much I want to do but it seems silly to do it right now. Starting anything the week before Christmas is just downright ridiculous-- unless it's that aforementioned shopping that I am only just beginning. And it seems really silly to set up my work station with the things I need whilst we are in the midst of building a new one. (A digression....WOO HOO! The front windows are in!!!!!)
Right now I am waiting for.....
Church to start
Christmas to be over
The New Year
The Room
Vacation
College Apps and Financial Aid
Cory
the lottery....
the dense clouds and fogginess
the next 8 classes
whim
wit
energy
"is this just fantasy?
caught in a landslide
no escape from reality,
Open your eyes,
look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy,
I need no sympathy
Because it's easy come, easy go
Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows,
doesn't really matter to me.....to me...."
Thursday, December 13, 2007
It's December 13th.
I've had the opportunity to do some one on one yoga with some of my students. It's wonderful. Went to a student's house yesterday. She has such a beautiful home, filled with warmth and love. We had a wonderful private class, what a treat to create a Sanctuary where ever we are. I had a class on Tuesday that ran over (WAY OVER) My husband who was with the next class had to come find us.... we had no idea time had passed. I have just really been in the present. It's marvelous cept I can't seem to think beyond today and that sometimes can bite you in the well... you know. Like Christmas morning when the kid's don't have any presents..... I don't think they will buy 'the gift is being in the present' philosophy. They'd rather have a Wii.
I'm thinking of offering a workshop for SoulCollage where we just make one card. Wouldn't it be cool to get together and have some egg nog and cookies and work on a "what the holiday season means to me?" card? No stress, no fuss.... course I'll have to look at a calendar to schedule it and that may stress me out. Realizing it's December 13th and seeing it on a calendar and how close to Christmas it really is are 2 different things. Wonder how many Sundays there are? Don't tell me.
If I count on my fingers, today being Thursday the 13th, Friday 14th, Saturday 15th, then Sunday is the 16th---Let's do it then! Please don't burst my bubble and make me add 7.... Yikes.
Tra la la la la..... Let's do a Holiday workshop this Sunday, at my house... haha haha....
Course I haven't made any egg nog or cookies.
(fingers in ears) nah nah nah, I can't hear you!
And my house is a mess. But it smells good because of the advent wreath. Cept for that juniper-- it always smells of cat pee to me.
OMG! YOU DON'T REALLY THINK IT IS CAT PEE, DO YOU?
Tra la la la la.... of course not! It's Juniper, dammit!
RSVP when you get a chance.....
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
The Lightbringer
The Lightbringer brings light to the darkness. Seems like an extremely important card this time of year. Especially today. We could all use some light, some illumination, some clarity. Even when you can see into the corners and don't like what you see. Facing reality and accepting what is, knowing there is nothing you can do to change it, the lightbringer needs you to see it.I made this card intuitively, like most of my cards. Wasn't really sure what it was going to be about, knew it was Council since the energy felt big. I was doing some research today after I wrote that first paragraph and imagine my shock when I found out that the other name for Lightbringer is "Lucifer". Now Christians hear that name and react with fear and aversion, in fact, I shuddered when I first read it. Scary stuff, Lucifer. At the risk of being considered wiccan or pagan (like it would be the first time LOL) I found some really interesting facts about the Lightbringer which sort of shook up my initial reaction.
From Wikipedia: Lucifer is a poetic name for the "morning star". Venus is characterized as the morning star because it rises on the early morning horizon before the sunrise. This very fact led the ancients to give it the name "lucifer," as it announced the coming of the morning light.
Because the planet Venus (Lucifer) is an inferior planet, meaning that its orbit lies between the orbit of the Earth and the Sun, it can never rise high in the sky at night as seen from Earth. It can be seen in the eastern morning sky for an hour or so before the Sun rises, and in the western evening sky for an hour or so after the Sun sets, but never during the dark of midnight.
Venus (Lucifer) is the brightest object in the sky after the Sun and the Moon. As bright and as brilliant as it is, ancient people couldn't understand why they couldn't see it at midnight like the outer planets, or during midday, like the Sun and Moon. Some believe they invented myths about Lucifer being cast out from Heaven to explain this. Lucifer was supposed to shine so bright because it wanted to take over the thrones or status of Saturn and Jupiter, both of which were considered most important by the worshippers of planetary deities at the time.
I mean, you could just knock me over with a feather! Here I made this card thinking it was all positive and light and wonderful and find out it has the most feared and "cast out" meanings behind it. Growing up Baptist, following the King James version of the Bible led me to be petrified of Satan (Lucifer) to the point that I really have never researched anything regarding this area of Christianity, I'm sure I skipped over this part in Isaiah and Ezekiel, just deciding that like a lot of things in the Bible, it's metaphor, not reality:
Many modern Christians have followed tradition and equated "Lucifer" with Satan, or the Devil. The King James Version of the Bible, which was enormously influential in the English speaking world for several centuries, retains reference in Isaiah 14:12. In addition, a parallel description of Lucifer's fall is thought to be found in Ezekiel chapter 28 ("A Prophecy Against the King of Tyre"), which contains a lament over an "anointed cherub" who was in the "holy mountain of God". He is described as "perfect in thy ways from the day that thou wast created, till iniquity was found in thee." The passage goes on to describe this being's expulsion from the "mount of God", apparently because his "heart was lifted up because of thy beauty, thou hast corrupted thy wisdom by reason of thy brightness." Afterwards the passage describes the eventual fate of this corrupted cherub: "therefore will I bring forth a fire from the midst of thee, it shall devour thee, and I will bring thee to ashes upon the earth in the sight of all them that behold thee. All they that know thee among the people shall be astonished at thee: thou shalt be a terror, and never shalt thou be any more."
So, just like everything with SoulCollage work, you got to wonder why this came up, why today, how did my subconscious know when I made the card weeks ago? Why was my first paragraph concerning bringing light to dark and why did I feel all along that the image was not completely lovely and isn't it sort of astonishing that the light is pouring down into a image of the morning light breaking through the clouds?
Without going into details, the whole story of the fight between God and Lucifer in Ezekiel 28 is particularly relevant today:
1 The word of the LORD came to me:
2 "Son of man, say to the ruler of Tyre (Lucifer),
'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: "
'In the pride of your heart
you say, "I am a god;
I sit on the throne of a god
in the heart of the seas."
But you are a man and not a god,
though you think you are as wise as a god.
13 You were in Eden,
the garden of God;
every precious stone adorned you:
ruby, topaz and emerald,
chrysolite, onyx and jasper,
sapphire, [b] turquoise and beryl. [c]
Your settings and mountings [d] were made of gold;
on the day you were created they were prepared.
14 You were anointed as a guardian cherub,
for so I ordained you.
You were on the holy mount of God;
you walked among the fiery stones.
15 You were blameless in your ways
from the day you were created
till wickedness was found in you.
17 Your heart became proud
on account of your beauty,
and you corrupted your wisdom
because of your splendor.
So I threw you to the earth;
I made a spectacle of you before kings.
18 By your many sins and dishonest trade
you have desecrated your sanctuaries.
So I made a fire come out from you,
and it consumed you,
and I reduced you to ashes on the ground
in the sight of all who were watching.
19 All the nations who knew you
are appalled at you;
you have come to a horrible end
and will be no more.'
Very interesting, hmmm? And really scary. Really, really scary.
The Sufi teacher Pir Vilayat Inayat Khan taught that 'Luciferian Light' is Light which has become dislocated from the Divine Source and is thus associated with the seductive false light of the lower ego which lures humankind into self-centred delusion.
I don't think I like my card anymore. But just like the Death card unfortunately it has a strong message and an extremely relevant insight.
Monday, December 10, 2007
Busy Weekend
learned to make my cell phone identify music
learned my kids knew how to do that years ago (Mom, that was so yesterday...)
went to Homestead and watched the trains and got greens
made a beautiful advent wreath
got a gift of 5 humongous windows for the garage
went to a very fun party with some very fun people
hosted the first Maryland SoulCollage facilitator's gathering
opened a bank account with my business partner and made it official
colored a shower curtain with my kids who are not really kids anymore
had dinner at my parents and found out they are feeding their dog from a plate at the table, seriously, sitting at the table with them for dinner....and breakfast....
stood in a checkout line and had the strange experience of each person in front of me turning around one by one, realizing we were all friends
bought my first Christmas gift
wrote a third of my Christmas cards
heard some very unsettling news and decided it was time to finally let go
had a beautiful worship experience with soft Christmas music and the lighting of the second candle
figured out why Shirley Temple wanted to be on my Pleaser card
ate and drank WAY TOO much, sigh.
All in all, a very productive weekend. Ready for a rest now :)
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Tin Man
It's just so well done. It's the "Wizard of Oz" but it's based on the book with well placed reminders of the movie interspersed. It's rare that an updated version of anything comes anywhere close to the original but they didn't try and compare or outdo, they really spun a new tale. It wasn't modernized in that they dumbed it down or tried to make it gangsta, it was just an honest, wonderful retelling that seemed new. The actors were phenomenal, unknowns except for Richard Dreyfuss (first thing in a long time I've enjoyed watching him in). The characters were really fleshed out, not one dimensional, even the witch showed so many complexities you never saw in the movie.
The thing I really liked about it, other than the whole spiritual spin they put on it, was that they recaptured that feeling you had as a child seeing the movie for the first time. It was scary! Not bloody or campy scary, but honest oh my goodness! How will Dorothy and her beloved friends escape the witch this time? I found myself with my blanket to my mouth shaking and then reminding myself that I am a grown up and you sort of know how it's gonna turn out LOL! That's how well done it was, it just transported you to a wonderful magic land with fantasy and adventure, I really can't say enough about it. You empathized with each of the actors, they were people, not characters. When the Tin Man cried, I cried. The Cowardly Lion was an Empath! Amazing! No wonder he was so afraid, he could feel the evil of the witch. And the Scarecrow, WOW! The depth of each, even Dorothy with Reiki energy, it was delightful.
I just can't get over how good it was. Now, I wouldn't recommend it for younger than 10 year olds but I wouldn't recommend the original for them either. (I know, I'm over protective) If you get a chance to watch it with your kids, Do-- we loved it.
Did anyone else watch it?
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
Keep Your Fingers Crossed.....
It's a miracle.
Don't think the irony of it snowing is lost on me....
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Stampin'
Monday, December 03, 2007
Weekend with Soul
The sun was amazing. Merrill Center is a solar heated building with huge panels just soaking in all the heat. At one point, we even had to open the door and let in some cooler air, it was so nice and toasty.
The group was a true test of Sheree & my passion and teaching since we didn't know 4 of them and only 2 of the whole group knew each other. It's one thing to teach to your friends and family but quite another when it's complete strangers. Plus, they came from all over, one even came from Springfield, VA! One of our students made a card with a goat on it that got Sheree & I off on a tangent about the goatman which to anyone from Bowie is just a known part of history-- everywhere else? Not so much.
Anyway, it still worked. It was still wonderful. Everyone really seemed to enjoy themselves and "get it". The cards they made were beautiful, so imaginative and inventive. It was so interesting getting to know who they were and where they come from, such varied stories. We were blessed with their honesty and openness. Each of them found a chakra animal-- even one who had never meditated before! Power of the water.....
Lunch was so easy and nice. We had soup in a crock pot and large buns. Lots of muffins, banana bread, fruit and of course, chocolate. We really are getting quite good at making this process easy and taking the whole thing to a level where even we get to relax and enjoy ourselves too, instead of running around working frantically. The slide show presentation on the big screen was quite fun too. All in all, a great day! We came home and right away planned the next one!
Here's one of our participants walking on the beach wrapped in a blanket during free time:
You should have seen the water glistening in the sun....Liquid light. So nice. Thanks CBF! What a beautiful setting for a beautiful day of soul searching....



