Warning: this blog entry will show my age.
The title of this blog is going to cause a large cry of "DANGIT!!" to those who are playing the game. And that will be all of you because apparently once you know about the game you are playing it whether you like it or not. At least that is what I am told.
Have you heard of this?
First I heard of it, we were sitting quietly watching something on tv with Rhia and a group of her friends. Out of nowhere, one the kids says, "I just lost the game." All the kids start yelling at the kid, "thanks alot! now I just lost the game!" Barry & I were baffled. There was no game.
The next thing I see is on Facebook. There was a great picture of one of the kids that I clicked on. I can't remember the picture but the caption read I JUST LOST THE GAME. 25 comments with varying degrees of profanity insulting the kid because he made everyone lose the game. Next thing you know there are all kinds of status posts (where you tell everyone what you are doing) that say, yep, you guessed it I JUST LOST THE GAME. What game? I just didn't get it.
So I go to Rhia, what the heck is the game? Here's her explanation: If you think of the game you lose it, you can't explain the game because by explaining you lose it. Like, you just made me lose the game. But now you lost the game cause you are thinking about the game. I'm going to have to go do something else so I stop thinking about the game.
Me: HUH????? I'm not playing the game. I don't even know what the game is.
Rhia: Doesn't matter, the game is always being played and once you know about it you are playing it and you just lost.
Me: Well, how do you win this game?
Rhia: You can't win because by winning you are thinking about the game. Which, by the way, you just lost.
Now, I have to admit that the game tickles me. I mean, who thought this up? And, by thinking it up didn't they instantly lose the game? Imagine the heartbreak of coming up with this great game but not being able to tell anyone because if you tell them you lose? Course, by telling you create them to lose as well... and then they have to walk around for the rest of their life trying to not think of the game. How bizarre. And diabolically clever.
This generation scares me.
PS. Oh.... and I just lost the game. Again.
PSS. So did you.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Christmas Eve
Home from church. Presents wrapped. Glass of wine. Cory home from work. We are all in for the night. This is Christmas. Quiet music. Watching Christmas cooking shows on mute. This is Christmas. Watching Cory and Rhia exchange their Christmas eve present. Christmas. Waiting for Barry to come down from wrapping his presents... this is Christmas.
Tomorrow we have Barry's family for breakfast (hope they taste good-- ba dum dummm) and then quiet. A bit of sadness that we are not with my family but over the years have learned acceptance. Vacation starts Christmas night. Maybe we'll go to the beach. Maybe we'll stay home.
Oh and best news of all, I am really on vacation. Thought I was going to have to at least teach at WG but Missy agreed to take my classes. I am excited about getting a rest for a bit and rejuvenating. I am excited about my free New Year's Day class.
Had people come by and buy some bracelets, earrings and eye pillows today. So blessed. This has been an amazing year. I feel more like I do now than I did when I first got here.
My hope? I hope that in some small way I have brought a bit of peace and joy to my students, my family and the people I don't know that read my blog, buy my stuff at Fabian House and smile at me on the street.
Merry Christmas. Love and Joy to all. Yolinna aka Linna aka Linda
Tomorrow we have Barry's family for breakfast (hope they taste good-- ba dum dummm) and then quiet. A bit of sadness that we are not with my family but over the years have learned acceptance. Vacation starts Christmas night. Maybe we'll go to the beach. Maybe we'll stay home.
Oh and best news of all, I am really on vacation. Thought I was going to have to at least teach at WG but Missy agreed to take my classes. I am excited about getting a rest for a bit and rejuvenating. I am excited about my free New Year's Day class.
Had people come by and buy some bracelets, earrings and eye pillows today. So blessed. This has been an amazing year. I feel more like I do now than I did when I first got here.
My hope? I hope that in some small way I have brought a bit of peace and joy to my students, my family and the people I don't know that read my blog, buy my stuff at Fabian House and smile at me on the street.
Merry Christmas. Love and Joy to all. Yolinna aka Linna aka Linda
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Child's Pose
I just did a meditation where I stayed in the corresponding chakra pose for the length of the chakra song from Chakra Healing Chants by Sophia. Some were 5 minutes, some were 9 minutes... it was very interesting. Before you get too impressed, I was doing restorative yoga so it's not like I was killing myself, you know? I just really felt the need for some deeeeep relaxation. Gathering perspective, so to speak.
The 3rd Eye Chakra Chant was 8 minutes long. I was in child's pose supported with my belly on the bolster, bolster on my heels and small pillow on my forehead. Sort of like this but without as much pillowing:
The 3rd Eye Chakra Chant was 8 minutes long. I was in child's pose supported with my belly on the bolster, bolster on my heels and small pillow on my forehead. Sort of like this but without as much pillowing:
Can I just tell you that was just a little bit of heaven? I mean, honestly, I just kept sinking deeper... and deeper... it was amazing. When I got up to do my crown chakra, I felt as if I was replenished, fresh & clean with bright shiny eyes. It was lovely. In fact, it was tough to stay focused for my crown chakra which was seated meditation. I wanted to skip and dance.
Have I ever mentioned that I love yoga?
I know, I know... of course.
Feeling low? Trust me-- 8 minutes in Child's Pose is all you need.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
One of those weeks
I am amazed that my head is fitting through the front door right now. It has just been one of those weeks.
No, not those weeks.
It's been one of those weeks where the kindness of others have left me speechless. So many wonderful emails, messages and even a whole blog post giving me praise and making me feel like it really is all worthwhile. It reminds me of when I first started on this path.
I had been working at the therapeutic nursery near my home. It was sort of a job going nowhere some days because although I loved the children and most of the people I worked with, I did not have a college degree so I was not eligible to be anything other than an aide. At a bit above minimum wage. The money and the title didn't mean a lot to me but I have to admit to feeling less than important compared to the college degreed people. I had been studying tai chi, yoga and eastern philosophy for quite some time and knew that my path was not one that would lead to 4 years of college... plus, my kids were getting closer to that being their path so financially... nuff said.
There was a teacher there I who had been close to when our children were little. She was very encouraging, knew that I had been studying yoga and really felt that I could teach that to the little ones and make a difference. With her constant gentle push, I found the courage to do so. Along the road I ended up getting certified and grown ups kept asking me to teach them. I was terrified. It was one thing to have a bunch of 4 year olds agree to play downdog with me but adults....yikes.
The kids had gotten very involved in plays and the youth group at the church associated with the nursery school. One of the requirements of my certification was that I give free classes to a population of people who wouldn't normally step into a yoga studio. Now, although my church congregation could definitely afford yoga... it was not something they would really think they could do or would want to. But again, that little push came... in the form of the Interim Reverend and the Youth Director at the time. They encouraged and when the Session of the church balked at us "desecrating" the Sanctuary, they fought. And I got approved. But was still terrified.
Along came the beautiful women in my life, my women's circle, my church family, my friends... they encouraged, they wrote me wonderful emails and letters letting me know that I had value. I have them still. I would not have found the courage without them. I would not be who I am today, hopefully someone who has returned that gift to many, if they had not gently pushed.
The secret to that push? It was no accident that at the same time I began to understand the concept of the Holy Spirit.... no, not religiously. But that little encouragement you get when you need it most, gently turning you to the right path, coming in whatever form you need, through whoever it can use who is open to it... That's Spirit. And it's always there. And it always leads you to where you are destined to be.
Thank you to so many of you who allow that Spirit to work through you. Peace be with you.
No, not those weeks.
It's been one of those weeks where the kindness of others have left me speechless. So many wonderful emails, messages and even a whole blog post giving me praise and making me feel like it really is all worthwhile. It reminds me of when I first started on this path.
I had been working at the therapeutic nursery near my home. It was sort of a job going nowhere some days because although I loved the children and most of the people I worked with, I did not have a college degree so I was not eligible to be anything other than an aide. At a bit above minimum wage. The money and the title didn't mean a lot to me but I have to admit to feeling less than important compared to the college degreed people. I had been studying tai chi, yoga and eastern philosophy for quite some time and knew that my path was not one that would lead to 4 years of college... plus, my kids were getting closer to that being their path so financially... nuff said.
There was a teacher there I who had been close to when our children were little. She was very encouraging, knew that I had been studying yoga and really felt that I could teach that to the little ones and make a difference. With her constant gentle push, I found the courage to do so. Along the road I ended up getting certified and grown ups kept asking me to teach them. I was terrified. It was one thing to have a bunch of 4 year olds agree to play downdog with me but adults....yikes.
The kids had gotten very involved in plays and the youth group at the church associated with the nursery school. One of the requirements of my certification was that I give free classes to a population of people who wouldn't normally step into a yoga studio. Now, although my church congregation could definitely afford yoga... it was not something they would really think they could do or would want to. But again, that little push came... in the form of the Interim Reverend and the Youth Director at the time. They encouraged and when the Session of the church balked at us "desecrating" the Sanctuary, they fought. And I got approved. But was still terrified.
Along came the beautiful women in my life, my women's circle, my church family, my friends... they encouraged, they wrote me wonderful emails and letters letting me know that I had value. I have them still. I would not have found the courage without them. I would not be who I am today, hopefully someone who has returned that gift to many, if they had not gently pushed.
The secret to that push? It was no accident that at the same time I began to understand the concept of the Holy Spirit.... no, not religiously. But that little encouragement you get when you need it most, gently turning you to the right path, coming in whatever form you need, through whoever it can use who is open to it... That's Spirit. And it's always there. And it always leads you to where you are destined to be.
Thank you to so many of you who allow that Spirit to work through you. Peace be with you.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Quiet
I find myself in that time and space where quiet is resonating deep within. It's a little window before the noise. It's like a physical presence enveloping me, almost like angel wings around my shoulders. My ears are almost ringing with the loudness of the quiet. It is only broken by the tapping of my fingers on the keys and today, even that is sporadic.
Last night at yoga it occurred to me that this is the time of year when the only quiet some people have is at yoga. It may be the only part of their life, besides sleep, where there are no cell phones ringing, no tv, no computer, shopping, children, parents, cars, nothing to disturb the sound of their own breath and heart beating. For some, it is hard to go from the hustle and bustle into that quiet. It can be deafening. And it's not just the quiet. It's the constant go go go. To actually take the time to settle deep into a pose and just stay there long enough to find that tiny adjustment that opens the window to a new revelation is really hard. But very worthwhile.
Relax.....Breathe.....Feel......Watch.....Allow.....
My yoga last night felt like a prayer, a trance, a meditation. I had to keep lifting my consciousness enough to remember I was teaching. Sometimes the mind, body and spirit connect so seamlessly that it becomes difficult to know where one begins and one lets off... or if they even do. I hope my students felt it too. It felt like that was what was needed. Quiet. Deep going within.
For some, who haven't practiced for long or been able to keep up their practice, I could see it was difficult at first. That monkey mind takes time to settle down. But by the end it seemed as if all were breathing a bit slower, their movements were more fluid, there was a sureness about them that they didn't walk in with.
Until relaxation. I got the bright idea to do relaxation in silence, which is usually really powerful. Unless the Chorale is practicing in the next room. Very, very loudly. But oh well, practice means finding the quiet within ... no matter how high the sopranos go.
Namaste'
Last night at yoga it occurred to me that this is the time of year when the only quiet some people have is at yoga. It may be the only part of their life, besides sleep, where there are no cell phones ringing, no tv, no computer, shopping, children, parents, cars, nothing to disturb the sound of their own breath and heart beating. For some, it is hard to go from the hustle and bustle into that quiet. It can be deafening. And it's not just the quiet. It's the constant go go go. To actually take the time to settle deep into a pose and just stay there long enough to find that tiny adjustment that opens the window to a new revelation is really hard. But very worthwhile.
Relax.....Breathe.....Feel......Watch.....Allow.....
My yoga last night felt like a prayer, a trance, a meditation. I had to keep lifting my consciousness enough to remember I was teaching. Sometimes the mind, body and spirit connect so seamlessly that it becomes difficult to know where one begins and one lets off... or if they even do. I hope my students felt it too. It felt like that was what was needed. Quiet. Deep going within.
For some, who haven't practiced for long or been able to keep up their practice, I could see it was difficult at first. That monkey mind takes time to settle down. But by the end it seemed as if all were breathing a bit slower, their movements were more fluid, there was a sureness about them that they didn't walk in with.
Until relaxation. I got the bright idea to do relaxation in silence, which is usually really powerful. Unless the Chorale is practicing in the next room. Very, very loudly. But oh well, practice means finding the quiet within ... no matter how high the sopranos go.
Namaste'
Sunday, December 07, 2008
16 Things You Probably Don't Know About Me....
I was tagged so I'm supposed to do this but I don't know that I can come up with 16. Errgh. If you are tagged you are supposed to do it too. Crazy Facebook world.
1. I am a total sucker for Jane Austin and classic books and movies like Jane Eyre & Little Women. When I get really overwhelmed sometimes I have to just shut down and watch Sense & Sensibility and Pride & Prejudice for HOURS.
2. I have seen every one of Elvis Presley's movies. Numerous times. In fact, I can probably sing every song from them. I was shocked when I found out they were bad.
3. I am very, very shy. I get very nervous if I have to speak in public or walk into a large party and mingle. Unless I'm teaching yoga. Which is hard to do at a large party.
4. I almost joined the Air Force when I was 17. Can you imagine?
5. I attended the Reagan, Bush, & Clinton Inaugurations with my Dad. I also marched in protest against the Iraqi War. With Signs. And Chanting. Not with my Dad.
6. I flunked Home Ec in 8th Grade and was put into Shop with 3 other girls who could not sew. I loved leather working with Mr. Shein....something... hold? beck?
7. I'm a horrible seamstress but an excellent cook. As long as I don't have to follow a recipe and can throw in whatever I want and don't have to clean up after it. I know how to clean but hate it with a passion and can only do it when I am really angry. Or is it I'm angry cause I have to clean?
8. There is almost nothing I enjoy more than gardening. But I have a weird quirk in that I cannot eat what I grow. Unless it's herbs. Once, I made a deal with the Jehovah Witnesses that knocked on my door that they could have the cherry tomatoes they could pick from my front yard (yes, I grow tomatoes in my front yard--that's where the sun is) if they would stop knocking on my door. They loved it. And haven't been back since..well at least they haven't knocked.
9. I am mostly estranged from most of my family. Mostly by their choice. Or my unwillingness to play by their rules. So I guess on some level it's my choice. It makes me sad though.
10. I have a really hard time killing anything living. Which makes the jungle that is my home almost impossible to navigate and/or control. I will not use pesticides or chemicals. Period. Unless ants or God forbid, roaches enter my house. Then it's war.
11. I dry my clothes outside on a clothesline. Even when they freeze. I get a kick out of standing the frozen jeans against the wall. I am obsessed with not wasting energy and would dry them all out there if I had the time. Or the space. Well, and if the family liked stiff clothes. Which they don't. Esp. underwear.
12. I was once kidnapped by a very angry father with a gun. They let me go when they saw my father's shotgun. Pointed at their heads. True Story. In Family Legend this is called "The Alvin Incident"
13. I was a humongous Osmond Brother fan when I was young. Until I discovered Led Zepplin.
14. I can't stand to have anyone touch my feet or to touch anyone's feet. Unless I am doing Reiki. Then it feels like an honor.
15. I am diabolically opposed to lying. I have an extremely hard time telling anything but the truth and am always STUNNED when I find out that other's lie. I am truly THAT gullible. STILL. I have a really difficult time when people do wrong, it's like it breaks something in me and I can't be with them honestly any more. I cannot stand for people to hurt others. It makes me have to protect them. Esp. kids.
16. I really do believe in the power of healing, prayer, light, love, peace and the law of attraction. I really believe that I have no choice but to give... no matter what. I really do believe that we are all one and we all have God in us. I really do believe it is our job to feed His sheep. And deep down, I really believe that the world is a beautiful place.
There you go Rhia. Course, I'm sure there's nothing in here that would surprise you. I tag whoever wants to do this :)
1. I am a total sucker for Jane Austin and classic books and movies like Jane Eyre & Little Women. When I get really overwhelmed sometimes I have to just shut down and watch Sense & Sensibility and Pride & Prejudice for HOURS.
2. I have seen every one of Elvis Presley's movies. Numerous times. In fact, I can probably sing every song from them. I was shocked when I found out they were bad.
3. I am very, very shy. I get very nervous if I have to speak in public or walk into a large party and mingle. Unless I'm teaching yoga. Which is hard to do at a large party.
4. I almost joined the Air Force when I was 17. Can you imagine?
5. I attended the Reagan, Bush, & Clinton Inaugurations with my Dad. I also marched in protest against the Iraqi War. With Signs. And Chanting. Not with my Dad.
6. I flunked Home Ec in 8th Grade and was put into Shop with 3 other girls who could not sew. I loved leather working with Mr. Shein....something... hold? beck?
7. I'm a horrible seamstress but an excellent cook. As long as I don't have to follow a recipe and can throw in whatever I want and don't have to clean up after it. I know how to clean but hate it with a passion and can only do it when I am really angry. Or is it I'm angry cause I have to clean?
8. There is almost nothing I enjoy more than gardening. But I have a weird quirk in that I cannot eat what I grow. Unless it's herbs. Once, I made a deal with the Jehovah Witnesses that knocked on my door that they could have the cherry tomatoes they could pick from my front yard (yes, I grow tomatoes in my front yard--that's where the sun is) if they would stop knocking on my door. They loved it. And haven't been back since..well at least they haven't knocked.
9. I am mostly estranged from most of my family. Mostly by their choice. Or my unwillingness to play by their rules. So I guess on some level it's my choice. It makes me sad though.
10. I have a really hard time killing anything living. Which makes the jungle that is my home almost impossible to navigate and/or control. I will not use pesticides or chemicals. Period. Unless ants or God forbid, roaches enter my house. Then it's war.
11. I dry my clothes outside on a clothesline. Even when they freeze. I get a kick out of standing the frozen jeans against the wall. I am obsessed with not wasting energy and would dry them all out there if I had the time. Or the space. Well, and if the family liked stiff clothes. Which they don't. Esp. underwear.
12. I was once kidnapped by a very angry father with a gun. They let me go when they saw my father's shotgun. Pointed at their heads. True Story. In Family Legend this is called "The Alvin Incident"
13. I was a humongous Osmond Brother fan when I was young. Until I discovered Led Zepplin.
14. I can't stand to have anyone touch my feet or to touch anyone's feet. Unless I am doing Reiki. Then it feels like an honor.
15. I am diabolically opposed to lying. I have an extremely hard time telling anything but the truth and am always STUNNED when I find out that other's lie. I am truly THAT gullible. STILL. I have a really difficult time when people do wrong, it's like it breaks something in me and I can't be with them honestly any more. I cannot stand for people to hurt others. It makes me have to protect them. Esp. kids.
16. I really do believe in the power of healing, prayer, light, love, peace and the law of attraction. I really believe that I have no choice but to give... no matter what. I really do believe that we are all one and we all have God in us. I really do believe it is our job to feed His sheep. And deep down, I really believe that the world is a beautiful place.
There you go Rhia. Course, I'm sure there's nothing in here that would surprise you. I tag whoever wants to do this :)
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Scattered.
Here it is. Once again I am scattered. I'm not sure exactly why. I think it may have something to do with having to switch hats too often too quickly. In the last week I:
Put on my yoga teacher hat and taught a bazillion classes
Switched to my reiki healer hat and gave healing to my beautiful clients
Put on my mom hat cause Rhia came home which created the need to
Put on my Rhia's Mom hat to all the kids running through my house and then
Put on my world's best cook (according to my kids) hat for Thanksgiving and then
Switched to my Person who goes to Church hat which was quite dusty but even dustier was my
Putting on a Show Hat and Holding Auditions which created the necessity for my
Creative Entertainer Hat which had grown small and was hard to put on but then I had to:
Take off my Mom hat cause Rhia went back to school and
Put on my Computer Hat and my
Instant Messenger Hat and my
Writer Hat for my newsletter which creates the whole
Website Designer Hat so I can update everything I said in my Newsletter but hardest of all is
Putting on my feeble Sewing Hat to make eye pillows and
Putting the detested Maid Hat on to clean up for the party this weekend and
Reluctantly putting on the Christmas Decorator Hat to please my husband and randomly
Putting on the Photographer Hat to post new pics on my website/facebook and
Jeweler Hat for the new bracelets and
Put on my Private Detective Hat because I had to
Take off the Photographer Hat cause I can't find my camera.
This means I need to put on my Organizer Hat which alas, is also very dusty.
Sigh. Feeling overwhelmed, I have put on my Blogger Hat for one reason:
Anyone seen my camera? Just checking.
Put on my yoga teacher hat and taught a bazillion classes
Switched to my reiki healer hat and gave healing to my beautiful clients
Put on my mom hat cause Rhia came home which created the need to
Put on my Rhia's Mom hat to all the kids running through my house and then
Put on my world's best cook (according to my kids) hat for Thanksgiving and then
Switched to my Person who goes to Church hat which was quite dusty but even dustier was my
Putting on a Show Hat and Holding Auditions which created the necessity for my
Creative Entertainer Hat which had grown small and was hard to put on but then I had to:
Take off my Mom hat cause Rhia went back to school and
Put on my Computer Hat and my
Instant Messenger Hat and my
Writer Hat for my newsletter which creates the whole
Website Designer Hat so I can update everything I said in my Newsletter but hardest of all is
Putting on my feeble Sewing Hat to make eye pillows and
Putting the detested Maid Hat on to clean up for the party this weekend and
Reluctantly putting on the Christmas Decorator Hat to please my husband and randomly
Putting on the Photographer Hat to post new pics on my website/facebook and
Jeweler Hat for the new bracelets and
Put on my Private Detective Hat because I had to
Take off the Photographer Hat cause I can't find my camera.
This means I need to put on my Organizer Hat which alas, is also very dusty.
Sigh. Feeling overwhelmed, I have put on my Blogger Hat for one reason:
Anyone seen my camera? Just checking.
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