Christmas Eve

Well, it's here. Christmas Eve.  We just got done wrapping the presents. It's been a busy, busy day... sort of like the whole year.  We're getting ready to go to church because *gasp* Cory & Rhia are lighting the advent candles.  Yes, you read that right, Cory.  I don't believe Cory has set foot in church for at least 5 years.  But this means the world to his sister so he's going to do it.  We were asked to light the candles the first year we officially joined the church.  They wanted us to light them Christmas Eve.  Unfortunately, they wanted us to light them there... and not in California, which is where we were.  Ugh, we were devastated.  We had gotten baptised together, all four of us, at the beginning of that December.  It would have been lovely to also light the candles but it was also lovely that someone else had the honor that year.

Trouble is, they never asked again.  Until this year.  The Youth Director sent an email to Rhia asking for her and Cory.  Cory.  Oh dear.  Now it's not that Cory isn't a believer, quite the contrary.  He has a natural faith that is remarkable.  Unfortunately, it's not in church or Christianity.  He really turned against organized religion a few years ago due to a succession of what he considered hypocritical Christians... don't get him started.  It's sad because although I have trouble with organized religion and/or the church, I love for our family to go to church together.  Especially at Christmas.

Long before we officially joined the church, we would bundle up our little sweethearts and take them to church Christmas Eve to get a piece of Jesus' birthday cake.  I would love to hear them sing the Christmas carols, they knew every word.  We had taught them about Jesus, God... and Buddha, Karma, Taoism... we wanted them to decide what they believed. And so they did.  But as I tell my wonderful son over and over, I never expected him to throw the baby out with the bathwater, so to speak.  In other words, you cannot judge Jesus by Christian's actions.  Unfortunately, the reflection is not always accurate.  We are human.

But tonight he will come to church.  And he will light the candles.  And he will make his family very, very happy. 

It's a lovely Christmas eve.  Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!

Wanting...

You ever really want something so much that you are afraid to want it?  Law of attraction folks would have a heyday with that.

Feel like laying my burdens down and resting my cares and singing an old African spiritual.

I never cease to be amazed at the twists and turns and full circles of my life.  What fun it is to be a witness.  Not so much being the star of the show. Ugh.

Sometimes I forget who I am.  And then I remember.

Thank God for deep breath.

I don't know about you but I am not thrilled with this cold weather.  Stupid story:  Yesterday Barry & I decided we hadn't gone up to our meditation shack since my operation.  We got the grand idea that we should put plastic over the screens to keep the wind out and in our morning Christmas shopping, picked up a small heater. (He put Christmas Lights on the silly thing so there's forbidden electric up there so I figure we may as well use it for something useful... OH SNAP!)  Anyways, so we're fighting with the plastic cause it's windy and cold and the adhesive won't stick.  We're grumpy cause we've been working REALLY hard lately and have had no time to just chill (literally in this case)  So we're sort of getting agitated but we perservere and get the plastic up, turn the heater on and sit.

Nothing.  Freezing.  We forgot that the floor is a deck. Ugh. We need to carpet.  Suddenly it dawns on us how ridiculous this is.  We are looking down at our warm, cozy new windowed house.  On the way to the warm, cozy new windowed house is a freaking HOT tub.  What the heck is wrong with us?

Yesterday turned out to be a really good day.  Once we put our brains back in our heads.

Lordy. 

I'm Baaaaaack...

Whew.  After a large hiatus, I can now blog again.  I had business stuff to attend to, which made me unable to blog honestly... and if I can't say what I want without censoring, it's just too damn hard to let it flow.  But the grand announcement has been made, I have an "official" business blog now and I can get back to this personal blog.. just letting it all hang out, warts and all.

Where would I even start?  I'm totally exhausted.  I'm feeling a bit rebellious.  I'm agitated. But it's all good. I think.  Just Christmas time in the city... ring a ling...

Anyways, I will be moving my business posts to my new combined business blog of which I will insert a link to here or you can just look to your right and see the link.  It's Imagine Yoga & Wellness.  This blog will contain my ramblings that may or may not be uplifting.. sort of like an accident scene.. you may move along, nothing to see here... unless you appreciate the wild ravings of a lunatic mind.

Wishing you glad tidings of comfort and joy.  For real.