Sometimes I feel like I am always in a perpetual state of waiting. "Once this happens, then I can do this....." should be my mantra. I have tremendous ideas, so many that I have started keeping pen and paper in every room to jot them down for when I have time to implement them. When will that be? And sadly, will I be able to find the papers?
I know that it is my own unique form of procrastinating. There is always some obstacle in the way. Other people's issues, holidays, renovations, children's stuff, time, time, time, shows, finances, desk space, world events.... ai yi yi.
It is particularly bad right now. I feel stuck. I have so much I want to do but it seems silly to do it right now. Starting anything the week before Christmas is just downright ridiculous-- unless it's that aforementioned shopping that I am only just beginning. And it seems really silly to set up my work station with the things I need whilst we are in the midst of building a new one. (A digression....WOO HOO! The front windows are in!!!!!)
Right now I am waiting for.....
Church to start
Christmas to be over
The New Year
The Room
Vacation
College Apps and Financial Aid
Cory
the lottery....
the dense clouds and fogginess
the next 8 classes
whim
wit
energy
"is this just fantasy?
caught in a landslide
no escape from reality,
Open your eyes,
look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy,
I need no sympathy
Because it's easy come, easy go
Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows,
doesn't really matter to me.....to me...."
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