I'll decide later

You know its bad when you can't even decide on a title.  Let that be a warning to you: Lord knows what this post will end up being about.  This week has just been a hodge podge of stuff. Yoga and Reiki and Drumming Meditations and Daughters coming home and leaving and Tarot appointments and SoulCollage and cancellations and tardiness and newsletters and gardening and I can't even remember Monday it seems like eons ago.  I watched a show with Shirley MacClaine talking about the world speeding up because it's on a fast track to 2012 and I don't know about that but I do feel like things are speeding up. I also believe that we are moving so fast that it becomes overwhelming at times. And exciting.

This 2012 thing...
Part of me thinks that absolutely, we are heading towards a BIG change, are already in it as a matter of fact.  I don't know that the change is the end of the world, more like the end of what we perceive as the world. Which is not reality.  I do believe that we create our reality... and the more people thinking the same thing creates a domino effect or a spiraling out of control motion, depending on how you look at it.  I think most people would agree that the world is nuts, that our values are screwed, that we have to find a way to live differently before we don't have a planet on which to live.  What I don't believe is that the weather/earthquakes/tsunamis are gonna blow us all away.  I think it's far more likely that we will blow ourselves up before any weather event does so.  I believe that sooner or later we are going to have to figure out that politics and political systems do not work. Never will.  I believe that 24 hour news is the tool of the devil. Not that I believe in the devil but I do believe that all this news creates hell on earth.

I believe that our psyches are wired for survival. I believe that is why so many people are "getting" the fact that yoga, meditation, reiki are the old wave of the future.  I believe the accelerated pace has to do more with how quick we can "get" this before we blow ourselves up. And separating the "get its" from the "blow it uppers". You know? And speaking of politics, ugh. The minute I think of it I want to dig a hole and go hide in it... I just can't handle it.

I had a client today who was talking about how she went into her house on Friday and didn't talk to anyone or come out of her house til Monday. She said it was heaven. I get that.  Sometimes it just all feels so overwhelming, she was saying she couldn't decide whether it was more energy to try and avoid people or to just go ahead and talk to them. She said she felt like everyone was pulling at her.  I had no easy answers for her.  She is not alone. So many people feel exactly the same way.  Which is interesting to me, if we all just want to be alone why are we making so many demands on each others time? Truth is, we don't want to be alone. But there's just too many of us. Every thing takes 3 times as long to do because there are just too many of us.  It's an ordeal to drive from one side of my town to the other. Trying to get a doctors appt. or waited on at a department store or even get  into a restaurant requires patience and deep breathing. It's crazy.

I feel a strong sense that it can't go on this way. I hope that whatever occurs to break this spiraling out of control world pace we've set, will be positive. Like a global awakening. Or world enlightenment. Or maybe the world's biggest power outage that lasts for a year where we relearn how to survive without 24 hour news. And facebook. With no noisy generators for those who can't last an hour without twitter. We'll live off the land, learn to garden, do yoga in the streets that will be empty of cars cause you can't buy gas. So there will be no wars about oil disguised as something else. We'll play guitars without amps cause our Ipods will run out of charge and we will still love music.  There will be no million dollar "stars" because there will be no movies, but there will be a million stars that we'll see because there's no light pollution. And after a year of relearning, we will decide that the only electric we need will be for the sick and ailing, the strong and healthy will live off the land. Which will make the land strong and healthy.

What a wonderful world this would be.