...I was born under a wandrin' star......
Don't know why, just woke up with that song in my head. It's from Paint Your Wagon, one of my favorite musicals. Course the song itself has nothing to do with me, in fact, the lyrics are fairly depressing....
...I was born under a wandrin' star, I was born under a wandrin' star, Wheels are made for rolling, mules are made to pack, I've never seen a sight that didn't look better looking back. I was born under a wandrin' star... Life can make you prisoner and the plains can bake you dry, Snow can burn your eyes, but only people make you cry. Home is made for coming from, for dreams of going to... Which with any luck will never come true. I was born under a wandrin' star, I was born under a wandrin' star ...
I really like the image of the wandrin' star. In the movie, Lee Marvin sings the song under his breath as he is leaving the love of his life so that she can be happy with his best friend. Deep heavy sigh.
I've been feeling like a lucky star has landed on my heart. Course the only lucky star lyrics I know are Madonna's and sometimes I prefer Lee Marvin's voice to hers....Oh SNAP!
I had a beautiful lunch yesterday with a beautiful, wise woman. There's a card in the Osho deck called The Master. Part of the text is: Masters don't teach the truth, there is no way to teach it. It is a transmission beyond scriptures, beyond words. It is energy evoking energy to you. It is a kind of synchronicity....I awoke this morning feeling so blessed to find so many Masters in my life, always just when I need them. She reminded me who I am, which is what Masters tend to do. And she reminded me in such a way that I was able to embrace who I am....warts and all. And she reminded me of my path. No matter what. For as long as it takes.
When I first got my Osho deck, I remember pulling that card and wailing over the fact that I didn't know any Masters, I didn't have anyone in my life to learn from. So I read. And read. And read. And then they came. And they keep coming. Just when I need them.
Sort of like Wandrin' Stars.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Wow!
Got 10 minutes...quick recap:
The funeral was one of the most beautiful I have ever attended. Really made us think, Barry and I are still talking about it. The picture Roxanne and her family created of a life well spent was breathtaking. The simple elegance of Mr. S's values was an inspiration--we will be forever changed by his example. They are blessed to have had such a wise soul as the leader of their family. Turns out he made a soul collage of his own in the last part of his life, this touched me to my core when Roxanne mentioned it--I can't begin to tell you. Seemed like a sign and well, a blessing. Thank you Roxanne, our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Even though we were a bit rushed and quite teary eyed, the SoulCollage workshop was tremendous. I cannot tell you how it felt to give birth to other's giving birth. Sheree and I were hugging in the hallway after they made their first cards--so amazing to see. We did a circle with the new cards and blessed them and then did amazingly powerful readings. I am so excited I can't see straight. We were so celebratory last night--our husbands, who were HUGE helpers, sat with us while we drank wine and marveled and yeah, cried a bit over how right this felt. Thank you God. Can't wait to get the circles up and running, will be working on that after rehearsal and trunk or treating.
Busy but soooo grateful and moved and anticipating the future. Thank you Seena, thank you. We had a small taste of how you must feel seeing your ideas come to life.
Details soon.
The funeral was one of the most beautiful I have ever attended. Really made us think, Barry and I are still talking about it. The picture Roxanne and her family created of a life well spent was breathtaking. The simple elegance of Mr. S's values was an inspiration--we will be forever changed by his example. They are blessed to have had such a wise soul as the leader of their family. Turns out he made a soul collage of his own in the last part of his life, this touched me to my core when Roxanne mentioned it--I can't begin to tell you. Seemed like a sign and well, a blessing. Thank you Roxanne, our thoughts and prayers are with you.
Even though we were a bit rushed and quite teary eyed, the SoulCollage workshop was tremendous. I cannot tell you how it felt to give birth to other's giving birth. Sheree and I were hugging in the hallway after they made their first cards--so amazing to see. We did a circle with the new cards and blessed them and then did amazingly powerful readings. I am so excited I can't see straight. We were so celebratory last night--our husbands, who were HUGE helpers, sat with us while we drank wine and marveled and yeah, cried a bit over how right this felt. Thank you God. Can't wait to get the circles up and running, will be working on that after rehearsal and trunk or treating.
Busy but soooo grateful and moved and anticipating the future. Thank you Seena, thank you. We had a small taste of how you must feel seeing your ideas come to life.
Details soon.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Roller Coaster
Today is going to be one of those nutty roller coaster days. I have to go teach yoga at 5678 which is always very peaceful and relaxing. I have to run (literally) from that to a dear friend's father's funeral which is very sad. I have to sneak out of that to finish setting up and preparing for my first SoulCollage workshop which I am very excited about. Then I really need to choreograph some dances for rehearsal Sunday that I am very behind on. Finally, I need to decorate my trunk so the kiddies can come trick or treat...in my trunk.
Since when did my weekend become my week? Oh well. I am really excited about the SoulCollage! We set the bulk of it up last night--it is going to be sooooo cool! Yay!
It's not exactly time for that yet, Linda, put your arms down!
Since when did my weekend become my week? Oh well. I am really excited about the SoulCollage! We set the bulk of it up last night--it is going to be sooooo cool! Yay!
It's not exactly time for that yet, Linda, put your arms down!
Friday, October 26, 2007
Daily Om
Without A Net
Living Life With Trust
As we create the life of our dreams, we often reach a crossroads where the choices seem to involve the risk of facing the unknown versus the safety and comfort of all that we have come to trust. We may feel like a tightrope walker, carefully teetering along the narrow path to our goals, sometimes feeling that we are doing so without a net. Knowing we have some backup may help us work up the courage to take those first steps, until we are secure in knowing that we have the skills to work without one. But when we live our lives from a place of balance and trust in the universe, we may not see our source of support, but we can know that it is there.
If we refuse to act only if we can see the safety net, we may be allowing the net to become a trap as it creates a barrier between us and the freedom to pursue our goals. Change is inherent in life, so even what we have learned to trust can surprise us at any moment. Remove fear from the equation and then, without even wondering what is going on below, we can devote our full attention to the dream that awaits us.
We attract support into our lives when we are willing to make those first tentative steps, trusting that the universe will provide exactly what we need. In that process we can decide that whatever comes from our actions is only for our highest and best experience of growth. It may come in the form of a soft landing, an unexpected rescue or an eye-opening experience gleaned only from the process of falling.
So rather than allowing our lives to be dictated by fear of the unknown, or trying to avoid falling, we can appreciate that sometimes we experience life fully when we are willing to trust and fall. And in doing so, we may just find that we have the wings to fly. When we believe that there is a reason for everything, we are stepping out with the safety net of the universe, and we know we will make the best from whatever comes our way.
I needed that today. Thanks!
Maybe I won't go back to my day job, after all....
Living Life With Trust
As we create the life of our dreams, we often reach a crossroads where the choices seem to involve the risk of facing the unknown versus the safety and comfort of all that we have come to trust. We may feel like a tightrope walker, carefully teetering along the narrow path to our goals, sometimes feeling that we are doing so without a net. Knowing we have some backup may help us work up the courage to take those first steps, until we are secure in knowing that we have the skills to work without one. But when we live our lives from a place of balance and trust in the universe, we may not see our source of support, but we can know that it is there.
If we refuse to act only if we can see the safety net, we may be allowing the net to become a trap as it creates a barrier between us and the freedom to pursue our goals. Change is inherent in life, so even what we have learned to trust can surprise us at any moment. Remove fear from the equation and then, without even wondering what is going on below, we can devote our full attention to the dream that awaits us.
We attract support into our lives when we are willing to make those first tentative steps, trusting that the universe will provide exactly what we need. In that process we can decide that whatever comes from our actions is only for our highest and best experience of growth. It may come in the form of a soft landing, an unexpected rescue or an eye-opening experience gleaned only from the process of falling.
So rather than allowing our lives to be dictated by fear of the unknown, or trying to avoid falling, we can appreciate that sometimes we experience life fully when we are willing to trust and fall. And in doing so, we may just find that we have the wings to fly. When we believe that there is a reason for everything, we are stepping out with the safety net of the universe, and we know we will make the best from whatever comes our way.
I needed that today. Thanks!
Maybe I won't go back to my day job, after all....
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Flighty
So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
Christopher McCandless American Adventurer
When I was a kid, my mom used to say I was flighty. "you switch from one thing to the other based on whatever character in a book you are reading". Guilty. I LOVE to read and I do immerse myself in the book and sometimes I really identify with a character and find myself becoming that person. I'm reading a book right now called "Eat, Pray, Love", that my friend said I MUST read. It's kinda frightening because I don't have to even think about it--this character is me. The shadow me. The one who needs to be free and travel and explore and learn.
The flighty one.
Now don't get me wrong--I love my kids, my husband, my friends--but never in a million years would I have thought this is where I would be. I never wanted to be married, never wanted to have kids, never wanted to live in the suburbs. Wanted to travel the world, live in New York in a penthouse (I know--I HATE New York), wanted to be rich and write novels and dance and sip champagne from a silver slipper ( I know--I HATE champagne)
I wanted to sing, to dance across the sky, to make a difference in the world and most of all to travel, to climb Mount Everest, to visit poor countries like Mother Teresa and touch the faces of those who need healing. I wanted to float on my back in the warm waters of Bali and ride an elephant in the deserts of Africa.
Isn't it just supreme irony that I married a man who resists change and likes routine, live in BOWIE for goodness sake and as a friend once told me, take every opportunity to trap myself into the staid and concrete? Just trying to avoid being flighty.
For some reason, the last SoulCollage card seems to go with this dreaming and I can't figure out why.
I thought it was the One who dances on the edge of possibilities but why does it seem to go with this wistful flightiness? Maybe the edge is the clue. Perhaps it has to do with playing the edge. Doing as much as I can to feed the inner flighty one without falling off into the abyss. The eye is the One who watches and the hawk must be the one who is overlooking the possibilities. She doesn't really look afraid though, in fact, she seems to like playing the edge.
Maybe she's flighty.....
You know, flighty isn't necessarily a bad thing--we all need that sense of adventure and we all need to play our edge sometimes.
What do you think?
Christopher McCandless American Adventurer
When I was a kid, my mom used to say I was flighty. "you switch from one thing to the other based on whatever character in a book you are reading". Guilty. I LOVE to read and I do immerse myself in the book and sometimes I really identify with a character and find myself becoming that person. I'm reading a book right now called "Eat, Pray, Love", that my friend said I MUST read. It's kinda frightening because I don't have to even think about it--this character is me. The shadow me. The one who needs to be free and travel and explore and learn.
The flighty one.
Now don't get me wrong--I love my kids, my husband, my friends--but never in a million years would I have thought this is where I would be. I never wanted to be married, never wanted to have kids, never wanted to live in the suburbs. Wanted to travel the world, live in New York in a penthouse (I know--I HATE New York), wanted to be rich and write novels and dance and sip champagne from a silver slipper ( I know--I HATE champagne)
I wanted to sing, to dance across the sky, to make a difference in the world and most of all to travel, to climb Mount Everest, to visit poor countries like Mother Teresa and touch the faces of those who need healing. I wanted to float on my back in the warm waters of Bali and ride an elephant in the deserts of Africa.
Isn't it just supreme irony that I married a man who resists change and likes routine, live in BOWIE for goodness sake and as a friend once told me, take every opportunity to trap myself into the staid and concrete? Just trying to avoid being flighty.
For some reason, the last SoulCollage card seems to go with this dreaming and I can't figure out why.
I thought it was the One who dances on the edge of possibilities but why does it seem to go with this wistful flightiness? Maybe the edge is the clue. Perhaps it has to do with playing the edge. Doing as much as I can to feed the inner flighty one without falling off into the abyss. The eye is the One who watches and the hawk must be the one who is overlooking the possibilities. She doesn't really look afraid though, in fact, she seems to like playing the edge.
Maybe she's flighty.....
You know, flighty isn't necessarily a bad thing--we all need that sense of adventure and we all need to play our edge sometimes.
What do you think?
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