I'm anxious today. I know to breathe through it but my monkey mind is trying to get the better of me. I was fine, excited even and then a conversation made me start worrying. Isn't it amazing how when you start worrying about one thing, the monkey mind gets excited and starts giving you lots of other things to worry about?
Like flying. I love to fly. I feel way more comfortable in a plane than in a car. But the news....ugh. Someone tied their cell phone to a block of cheese and tried to get it through security. Ridiculous, right? But of course the news turns it into a precursor to terrorism and that is why there is war in Iraq. WTF? So now I got to worry that my plane will blow up with a block of cheese.
I'm shy. Depending on how close you are to me, you may or may not know this. Lori gave me an itinerary of all the people she has me meeting in Oregon. Why I thought it was basically just her and me is beyond me....it's her home, of course there will be lots of people. I was floating along thinking how wonderful it will be to have someone else in charge and then *poof* major anxiety.
And worse. I am just a total sap when it comes to leaving my family. I don't like to be away from them. The last time I went away without Barry for any length of time, I ended up sitting in the airport with a delay freaking out cause I couldn't stand another minute. And I had Rhia with me and we had had a really good time. It's just a weird thing, we rarely have spent a day apart in 28 years, from the very first date. I've never been away from my whole family. I'm kinda having a hot flash/panic attack just thinking about it. Plus, there is just soooo much crud swirling around them right now with Rhia in tech week and me missing her opening night (a first) and Cory so unhappy with his job...ugh. So much for my tough facade huh?
Breathing, breathing. I think I'm just emotionally overwrought and drained over Harry Potter. And my flight home sucks. And I have a ton to do to go and a ton to do when I get back. Decisions to make and all kinds of details. Only one way to deal with all of it.
Yoga. And more yoga. and more yoga. Downward Dog in the aisles....hope I don't get bumped from behind with the drink cart. Just keep repeating...it's going to be fine, it's going to be fine. Mount Hood and waterfalls, things you have only dreamed of...
I can't wait to get home. Isn't that silly?
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Take a nice deep cleansing breath. Take another. Feel the cool, clean air of Mt Hood blowing across your face. Breath in the cool, clean air. Breath in the fragrance of the flowers and the trees. Relax into the peace.
Nameste.
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