Hope you had fun this weekend. We did. We went to many parties, saw many interesting things, heard many interesting tales and observed some very interesting dancing....
Summer begins. Is it hot enough for you? It kinda annoys me when people say that normally but right now it seems even worse. I've had this dreaded hot flash thing going on full steam for a week or so. Like really...what a pain. Every time I mentioned the heat at all this weekend it seemed as if there was a woman my age nearby going "I KNOW...REALLY!!!! JEEZ...! THIS HEAT!!!" And then we smile ruefully.
Personally, I think I am WAY too young for this. Not that I have any problem with aging cause I think it's pretty cool. I sort of really like that crone thing. But I have to be honest and say I'm not thrilled with the hot flashes and the NIGHT SWEATS!! What the Hell? Like being woken up in a sweat throwing the covers off only to get cold 2 minutes later cause you're drenched is just not as pretty as I make it sound. And how many night gowns does one person really need to go through a night.....AND OMG....MY HAIR!!! I'm starting to understand that helmet head that is so popular with woman my age and older. I literally got up in the middle of the night, sopping wet and put my hair up in a pony tail on the top of my head only because I couldn't find the $&%# scissors....
So today I broke down and bought Estroven. Sigh. And an old ladies cotton nightgown.
But I can still shimmy like a rock star when so inclined. And did Saturday with my buddies.
But then we had to go stand on the air conditioning vent.....
Monday, May 28, 2007
Saturday, May 26, 2007
A Gift
So, I have been obsessed with cleaning my house. Like obnoxiously. Like no one in my house is speaking to me obsessed. I've been trying to undo 5 years of not doing in one week. Like windows and blinds and drapes....ugh. What is wrong with me? I keep thinking if I can get on top of the cleaning and organizing, losing 25 pounds should be a cinch.
So it's been icky and dusty and exhausting and frankly, pretty frustrating. I live with an interesting group of people who believe in fairies. As in, a bathroom fairy, a laundry fairy, a put things away fairy....you get the drill. Needless to say, this fairy has been pretty pissed off (thanks Lori for the plaque :) )
Yesterday Rhia told me I had to drive her to Annapolis so she could be a pirate for a party for a pre school. I was just downright irritated! How could she interrupt my cleaning binge in the middle of the morning just when I was thisclose to getting it all done? She said we had to be there at 10:30 and it would only take an hour. So grumbling, we set off. We drive down the highway, me complaining the whole while about the traffic and not knowing where I was going and blah, blah. We get to Quiet Waters Park and I ask the guy at the place you pay the money to get in where we are supposed to go, pay the money and go wait. Rhia calls her friend, who is late, so we wait. And wait. And wait. The friend gets there and we soon find out we are at the wrong park. You can imagine my mood at this point--I mean really, I have things to do!! Toilets to clean!! Carpets to wash!! Cabinets and Closets to re-arrange!
So Rhia takes off with her friend, who rapidly gives me directions to the next park. I of course, get lost but eventually find the right road. As I get to the end of the road, it slowly dawns on me where it ends. The beach! The Bay! Right on the water! Whooppeee! Maybe this won't be so bad. I grab a blanket out of the back of my car and go sit at the water's edge....Ahhhh.
It occurred to me that sometimes when you least expect it, God gives you a gift. Yes, I could have been home cleaning. Yes, it was inconvenient and time consuming (what was supposed to take 1 hour took 4) Yes, I got sunburned and was starving but I got to sit for a long spell looking at the liquid light, no responsibilities, nothing I could do, no way to get out of it. I had to just sit. And wait. And boy, did I need it....
"....People who live beside moving water have been given the gift of living lights, and even if they never come to recognize it as such, any other light, no matter how clear or brilliant, is pale and static to them, leaving them with a sense of loss, of vulnerability, as it they have suddenly found themselves without clothes.
"I have to be near the water, " they will say.....But what most of them are really saying, without knowing it is, "I can't live without that lights that dances with me. I wear it like a living skin, without it I am incomplete." .............excerpt from Sweetwater Creek by Anne River Siddons
You should have seen the light dancing on the water yesterday. It was glorious. I was grateful. Thanks Rhia!
So it's been icky and dusty and exhausting and frankly, pretty frustrating. I live with an interesting group of people who believe in fairies. As in, a bathroom fairy, a laundry fairy, a put things away fairy....you get the drill. Needless to say, this fairy has been pretty pissed off (thanks Lori for the plaque :) )
Yesterday Rhia told me I had to drive her to Annapolis so she could be a pirate for a party for a pre school. I was just downright irritated! How could she interrupt my cleaning binge in the middle of the morning just when I was thisclose to getting it all done? She said we had to be there at 10:30 and it would only take an hour. So grumbling, we set off. We drive down the highway, me complaining the whole while about the traffic and not knowing where I was going and blah, blah. We get to Quiet Waters Park and I ask the guy at the place you pay the money to get in where we are supposed to go, pay the money and go wait. Rhia calls her friend, who is late, so we wait. And wait. And wait. The friend gets there and we soon find out we are at the wrong park. You can imagine my mood at this point--I mean really, I have things to do!! Toilets to clean!! Carpets to wash!! Cabinets and Closets to re-arrange!
So Rhia takes off with her friend, who rapidly gives me directions to the next park. I of course, get lost but eventually find the right road. As I get to the end of the road, it slowly dawns on me where it ends. The beach! The Bay! Right on the water! Whooppeee! Maybe this won't be so bad. I grab a blanket out of the back of my car and go sit at the water's edge....Ahhhh.
It occurred to me that sometimes when you least expect it, God gives you a gift. Yes, I could have been home cleaning. Yes, it was inconvenient and time consuming (what was supposed to take 1 hour took 4) Yes, I got sunburned and was starving but I got to sit for a long spell looking at the liquid light, no responsibilities, nothing I could do, no way to get out of it. I had to just sit. And wait. And boy, did I need it....
"....People who live beside moving water have been given the gift of living lights, and even if they never come to recognize it as such, any other light, no matter how clear or brilliant, is pale and static to them, leaving them with a sense of loss, of vulnerability, as it they have suddenly found themselves without clothes.
"I have to be near the water, " they will say.....But what most of them are really saying, without knowing it is, "I can't live without that lights that dances with me. I wear it like a living skin, without it I am incomplete." .............excerpt from Sweetwater Creek by Anne River Siddons
You should have seen the light dancing on the water yesterday. It was glorious. I was grateful. Thanks Rhia!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Feng Shui
Don't let the mystic name fool you. Feng Shui is very important. Basically it means that when you walk into a room, you feel good. On an aesthetic level. Now, lots of people charging lots of money will convince you that it is very complicated but most of it is common sense. You have to stand in the middle of your room and slowly move around and basically eliminate everything that makes you feel drained. As in:
trash
laundry
things people gave you that you don't like
things you like that people you don't like gave you
clutter
people/animals you don't like (sorry, they must go)
things associated with negativity like bills or mementos of unpleasant events in your life
anything broken
dirt or cobwebs (sorry!)
And so on. You just take a look at each thing, take a breath, sense your innards and either keep or get rid of. Simple as that.
Next, you walk around the room. Anything that impedes your progress must go. Anything that makes you have to move sideways needs to move. You should be able to walk freely, swinging your arms, without knocking anything over. Anything you knock over must go. Like the dog.
Finally, sit down in the room. Get everyone in your house to do the same. If you have to crane your neck to see them, you need to move the furniture. Look down. If there is a corner of a table pointing at you, you need to change that--you could bang your knee. See moving freely about the room.
Now. Just that should make you feel tons better when you walk in the room. If you want to take it further.....think about what you could add to make it better. For example, when you are sitting in the room facing your loved ones and one of them gets up to go to the bathroom and leaves the door open, can you see the toilet? Bad feng shui....so you put a screen or a plant up to block. I mean, really, who wants to look at a toilet?
And speaking of toilets, bathrooms are a very good place to create movement... (lol! sorry....) so we create movement with wind chimes, fans, pictures of water....
Anywhere you want the energy to slow down, add metal, wood, earthy things.
When you want the energy to speed up or you need to break it up a bit, add water, wind, fire.
So there you go. You are now a feng shui expert. You can charge hundreds of dollars to go stand in the center of someone's house and say, "You really need to clean this dump up".
If you can say it in Chinese, it pays double.
You're welcome.
trash
laundry
things people gave you that you don't like
things you like that people you don't like gave you
clutter
people/animals you don't like (sorry, they must go)
things associated with negativity like bills or mementos of unpleasant events in your life
anything broken
dirt or cobwebs (sorry!)
And so on. You just take a look at each thing, take a breath, sense your innards and either keep or get rid of. Simple as that.
Next, you walk around the room. Anything that impedes your progress must go. Anything that makes you have to move sideways needs to move. You should be able to walk freely, swinging your arms, without knocking anything over. Anything you knock over must go. Like the dog.
Finally, sit down in the room. Get everyone in your house to do the same. If you have to crane your neck to see them, you need to move the furniture. Look down. If there is a corner of a table pointing at you, you need to change that--you could bang your knee. See moving freely about the room.
Now. Just that should make you feel tons better when you walk in the room. If you want to take it further.....think about what you could add to make it better. For example, when you are sitting in the room facing your loved ones and one of them gets up to go to the bathroom and leaves the door open, can you see the toilet? Bad feng shui....so you put a screen or a plant up to block. I mean, really, who wants to look at a toilet?
And speaking of toilets, bathrooms are a very good place to create movement... (lol! sorry....) so we create movement with wind chimes, fans, pictures of water....
Anywhere you want the energy to slow down, add metal, wood, earthy things.
When you want the energy to speed up or you need to break it up a bit, add water, wind, fire.
So there you go. You are now a feng shui expert. You can charge hundreds of dollars to go stand in the center of someone's house and say, "You really need to clean this dump up".
If you can say it in Chinese, it pays double.
You're welcome.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Some Random Musings
I am convinced that electronic cords breed at night while we sleep and tangle themselves up on purpose.
For all the good of theater....there is an equal amount of bad.
Sometimes it may be okay to burn a bridge.
Birds definitely do NOT flock together.
Paperwork is annoying and time consuming. Even if it's electronic. Clearing out a hard drive is just as bad as clearing out a file cabinet. And you don't get the satisfaction of a fire.
If everyone did the right thing there would not be war. Duh.
Pollen sucks.
Sometimes you just gotta kick off your shoes and shimmy.
My daughter thinks she's a ceiling fan cause she's so cool.
Roses blooming in Weigela is one of the most amazing things I've ever seen and smelled.
I think that while the cords are dancing, the dust and cobwebs are having wild orgies....
Is that how you spell the plural of orgy? Ha ha....Or Gee....
Typing random blog entries so you don't have to finish the crazy mess you've created trying to organize everything in your home all at once when you just don't really have the energy STILL to see it through is more time consuming than actually seeing it through. But it's better than staring into space for hours.....
Or is it?
For all the good of theater....there is an equal amount of bad.
Sometimes it may be okay to burn a bridge.
Birds definitely do NOT flock together.
Paperwork is annoying and time consuming. Even if it's electronic. Clearing out a hard drive is just as bad as clearing out a file cabinet. And you don't get the satisfaction of a fire.
If everyone did the right thing there would not be war. Duh.
Pollen sucks.
Sometimes you just gotta kick off your shoes and shimmy.
My daughter thinks she's a ceiling fan cause she's so cool.
Roses blooming in Weigela is one of the most amazing things I've ever seen and smelled.
I think that while the cords are dancing, the dust and cobwebs are having wild orgies....
Is that how you spell the plural of orgy? Ha ha....Or Gee....
Typing random blog entries so you don't have to finish the crazy mess you've created trying to organize everything in your home all at once when you just don't really have the energy STILL to see it through is more time consuming than actually seeing it through. But it's better than staring into space for hours.....
Or is it?
Friday, May 18, 2007
The more things change......
Full circle. Life is an amazing thing. We think we are accomplishing so much and moving forward and making progress and the truth is that we are only growing. We will keep coming back to the same place over and over, hopefully with a bit more perspective, maybe a little maturity, definitely with a little less energy.
In Celestine Prophecy, one of my favorite books, it says that we will keep living our life dramas over and over until we figure them out and then we can leave them behind. That's why we keep meeting the same type of people, reinacting the same situations, having the same thing happen to us over and over. We say things like "why does this always happen to me?" "when will I stop doing ______this?" "I always come across that same kind of ______person (controlling, victim, martyr, user, you fill in the blanks) "
The solution is to figure out what the situation/person/drama is trying to tell you. Course that doesn't necessarily mean that's the end. We then have to figure out what to do with the info. And lots of time we are only skimming the surface.....there are many, many layers to the drama, most times we are only just beginning the understanding. That's why it takes lifetimes. That's why some believe in reincarnation, you can look around you and see many people who will just never get it in a lifetime. Maybe even yourself. Me too.
I have once again come full circle. In so many ways I am right back to where I started 5 years ago, 10, 15, 20..... Same dramas, same people, only some of the faces have changed. Like my own. It can be rather frustrating/depressing. But I am lucky. I know what to do. I have a whole tool box to draw from.
When you are busy with life's accomplishments and fulfilling your purposes, many times you forget what brought you to where you are. What brought me to now sanely (and I use the word loosely) was yoga, meditation, prayers, journaling, reiki, nature, tarot, silence and breath. Tuning Out. and Tuning In.
Time. Understanding balance, yin and yang. What goes up.....
Thank you for your prayers. I feel them and they are saving me. My dad is as well as he can be at this point. And my mother. It is what it is. This too shall pass. There are always mountains on the sides of the valley. Both are useful.
Every valley I have come out of has had an amazing mountain to conquer.....and I have stood at the top of many of them, sun shining on my face, triumphant. Can't wait to see the next one :)
Full circle. Life is an amazing thing. We think we are accomplishing so much and moving forward and making progress and the truth is that we are only growing. We will keep coming back to the same place over and over, hopefully with a bit more perspective, maybe a little maturity, definitely with a little less energy.
In Celestine Prophecy, one of my favorite books, it says that we will keep living our life dramas over and over until we figure them out and then we can leave them behind. That's why we keep meeting the same type of people, reinacting the same situations, having the same thing happen to us over and over. We say things like "why does this always happen to me?" "when will I stop doing ______this?" "I always come across that same kind of ______person (controlling, victim, martyr, user, you fill in the blanks) "
The solution is to figure out what the situation/person/drama is trying to tell you. Course that doesn't necessarily mean that's the end. We then have to figure out what to do with the info. And lots of time we are only skimming the surface.....there are many, many layers to the drama, most times we are only just beginning the understanding. That's why it takes lifetimes. That's why some believe in reincarnation, you can look around you and see many people who will just never get it in a lifetime. Maybe even yourself. Me too.
I have once again come full circle. In so many ways I am right back to where I started 5 years ago, 10, 15, 20..... Same dramas, same people, only some of the faces have changed. Like my own. It can be rather frustrating/depressing. But I am lucky. I know what to do. I have a whole tool box to draw from.
When you are busy with life's accomplishments and fulfilling your purposes, many times you forget what brought you to where you are. What brought me to now sanely (and I use the word loosely) was yoga, meditation, prayers, journaling, reiki, nature, tarot, silence and breath. Tuning Out. and Tuning In.
Time. Understanding balance, yin and yang. What goes up.....
Thank you for your prayers. I feel them and they are saving me. My dad is as well as he can be at this point. And my mother. It is what it is. This too shall pass. There are always mountains on the sides of the valley. Both are useful.
Every valley I have come out of has had an amazing mountain to conquer.....and I have stood at the top of many of them, sun shining on my face, triumphant. Can't wait to see the next one :)
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