Bed and Breakfast?

The last couple of months (after the play) I have been getting on with my life. Not that I wasn't living before, quite on the contrary, but I kept revisiting the same issues with the same results. Who was it that said, "the real definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and then expecting different results"? I realized there were things I was attracting just by wondering why I kept attracting them. There was a multitude of ugliness that I was creating with my subconscious need to recreate my childhood victim-ness. Wait a minute, that's probably TMI.

So in moving on, I had to first start figuring out what I really wanted to move towards. Always a good place to start. Much more powerful than moving away from what you don't want. Spin it positive.

I have known that I have a gift. The yoga truly just comes through me. It has nothing to do with me really, I am just lucky enough to be blessed with it. Now, don't get me wrong, I have studied and studied and studied all sorts of wonderful things that guide me in my teaching and I do understand that really helps my confidence and my 'this world' guidance but the bottom line is that the ability to get up in front of a group of people and 'feel' what they need and then give it to them is a gift from God. No question.

I have a deep need to serve others. It used to be a selfish, "people will like me if I give them what they want", but it has evolved into need to create happiness and healing with no thought other than to bring joy. Ahhh, Flowering......"The Queen of Rainbows is like a fantastic plant that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. The sleeves of her garment contain an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. She is not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks - she is just spreading them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love. Flowers fall on her from above, in harmony with her own flowering, and the waters of emotion swirl playfully beneath the flower on which she sits.

Your life should reach to others. Your blissfulness, your benediction, your ecstasy should not be contained within you like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its fragrance to all and sundry - not only to the friends but to the strangers too. This is real compassion, this is real love: sharing your enlightenment, sharing your dance of the beyond." http://www.osho.com/

I had this as a poster on my bedroom wall for the longest time. It speaks to me--tossing my seeds, not concerned with where they land.....

Barry and I are talking about buying a bed and breakfast/healing center. He discovered this weekend that there may be a different path for us. We are starting to research it, kinda narrowing it down to where and how and what and possibilities. I know down in my bones that it is the right path for me. Or at least some variation of it. I feel as if I am meant to create a sanctuary for healing, a place for people to let down their every day selves and be held in warmth and comfort. Mmmm, yoga and energy healing and warm tea and fire....I can see it all. Stay tuned.....

Strength

So a month or so ago, I made a vision board. I put magazine cut outs of the things I am visualizing for my future--a yoga studio, a bed and breakfast with a beautiful garden, health, bringing others happiness, trees, etc. I put it on the wall next to the bed and every morning when I wake up I roll over and smile at it (still being a bit skeptical about the whole law of attraction)

Yesterday was the Restorative Yoga Day. It was lovely. I have never felt so 'in my element'. I was joyous and wanting to give and peaceful and calm all day. When people came in to register, we had angel cards at the table where they could pick one to give them a word to focus on for their day. During the first yoga session, I had everyone move their mats to the wall so they could do 'legs up the wall' for relaxation. Someone had left their angel card on their mat and it turned rightside up and stayed at my feet for the rest of the day. STRENGTH was the word on the card. I occasionally glanced down and noticed it throughout the day, not really thinking anything of it (as I mentioned, I was totally in my element, no thoughts, just everything coming through me, I was just a conduit for healing)

Last night, as I was exhaustedly turning in to bed, completely content and happy, I rolled toward the wall and saw this:

(I can't get the picture to upload, will add it later. It's a picture of my vision board. Right across the middle in big bold letters is the word STRENGTH)

The universe is so funny. The 'law of attraction': you will attract those feelings you visualize, that you bring to your focus. I have been visualizing peace, how my yoga makes me feel, how teaching and serving others feels.

There's a quote from one of the scientists in "What the Bleep?" where he says he starts each day setting his intention. I don't remember the whole thing but it ends with a prayer to God to let him know that he is on the right path and if he is, that God should give him a sign so he will know without a doubt that he is doing the right thing. I always thought that was a bit presumptous of him to demand that God give him a sign and figured he must get disappointed a lot.

I thank God for letting me know without a doubt that I am doing the right thing. And that I am on the right path. And I didn't even really need the sign. But I am oh so grateful to have it!

Namaste'

Thanksgiving

I was searching for something interesting to say about Thanksgiving and found the most pathetic stories of how we abused the Indians and then gave thanks for our prosperity and act like it's our God given right.

Ugh. Dreadful.

And then we have the nerve to cheapen it further by calling it Turkey Day. What the heck are we worshipping really?

Sorry. Gonna walk it off. Did you know that my maternal grandfather was full blooded Cherokee? humpf. Turkey Day my butt. Should call it Thank the Indians for the Fact You Survived Day.

Water

In the movie "What the Bleep?" there is a part where the main character learns about the power of suggestion on water. It is based on Dr. Masaru Emoto's scientific studies where he taped words onto water sources and magnified the results to see if there were any changes. The results are amazing, here is a link to his web site and the water crystal of the month. http://www.masaru-emoto.net/english/ephoto.html It is astonishing the power that words have on water, one of the best lines in the movie is "If words can do that to water, imagine what they can do to us".

I personally tend toward skepticism whenever it comes to woo woo stuff, which is actually quite interesting considering my profession but I really have to experience things myself to believe them. So the whole idea that you can change the chemistry of water and yourself with words is a bit far fetched in my opinion. But I decided to try and keep an open mind and do a bit of experimenting on my own. It was actually quite spontaneous.

I was washing my face the other day, just like every morning, and suddenly I started speaking to the water. I know? How weird.... Not like a conversation but just a word or two that came to mind as I was splashing the water onto my face. Words like healing....love....energy. Just whatever came to mind. Silly right? I completely forgot about it until the next morning when it just started naturally happening again. Compassion....peace.....wisdom.

Okay. Call it the power of suggestion (duh) but I feel so much better, so much happier, sort of clearer. More upbeat. Even with all the hoopla going on in my world right now. (trust me, you don't want to know) Is it possible that this stuff is true? Or is it just the thought that it may be true? Or is that the point?

Try it. Let me know how it works for you.

What's the worst that could happen? People might think you are nuts? Ha ha, I guess it's too late for me, huh?

Bring it!

Anyone who knows my family knows that we are totally strange about the weather. My husband is a total weather geek, will go on and on about what's gonna happen, what happened in 1908 in Europe, you get the picture. A simple "what's the weather gonna be like tomorrow?" will provide you with an hour of head lolling "uh huhs" trying to be polite. But he's cute and it is free entertainment so we ask him regularly just to amuse ourselves.

If they ever predict a big storm (and well really, aren't they always predicting the 'big one'?) you can find us all out on the porch watching the skies waiting for the "real wrath of God-type stuff" as Barry puts it. When the storm starts we all are yelling, "BRING IT!!" waiting for the big one that the weather forecasters have been predicting with their wild eyed dire threats for years.

Of course, with that kind of build up it would take a real act of God, total devastation, trees falling, cows flying by, to really live up to our wild imagination of what a REAL storm would be like. And we would probably then be screaming, "JUST KIDDING!!! Don't you know a joke when you hear one? A ha ha ha?"

There's always a moment in the storm when the lightening gets just a little too close for comfort and I always think that the idea that you should be careful what you wish for is good advice.

Today. Not so much. Sigh. Guess we'll have to wait for the first 10 foot snow storm. Bring it!!!! Sha-right..