Bed and Breakfast?

The last couple of months (after the play) I have been getting on with my life. Not that I wasn't living before, quite on the contrary, but I kept revisiting the same issues with the same results. Who was it that said, "the real definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and then expecting different results"? I realized there were things I was attracting just by wondering why I kept attracting them. There was a multitude of ugliness that I was creating with my subconscious need to recreate my childhood victim-ness. Wait a minute, that's probably TMI.

So in moving on, I had to first start figuring out what I really wanted to move towards. Always a good place to start. Much more powerful than moving away from what you don't want. Spin it positive.

I have known that I have a gift. The yoga truly just comes through me. It has nothing to do with me really, I am just lucky enough to be blessed with it. Now, don't get me wrong, I have studied and studied and studied all sorts of wonderful things that guide me in my teaching and I do understand that really helps my confidence and my 'this world' guidance but the bottom line is that the ability to get up in front of a group of people and 'feel' what they need and then give it to them is a gift from God. No question.

I have a deep need to serve others. It used to be a selfish, "people will like me if I give them what they want", but it has evolved into need to create happiness and healing with no thought other than to bring joy. Ahhh, Flowering......"The Queen of Rainbows is like a fantastic plant that has reached the apex of its flowering and its colors. The sleeves of her garment contain an abundance of seeds, and as the wind blows the seeds will be scattered to take root where they may. She is not concerned whether they land on the soil or on the rocks - she is just spreading them everywhere in sheer celebration of life and love. Flowers fall on her from above, in harmony with her own flowering, and the waters of emotion swirl playfully beneath the flower on which she sits.

Your life should reach to others. Your blissfulness, your benediction, your ecstasy should not be contained within you like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its fragrance to all and sundry - not only to the friends but to the strangers too. This is real compassion, this is real love: sharing your enlightenment, sharing your dance of the beyond." http://www.osho.com/

I had this as a poster on my bedroom wall for the longest time. It speaks to me--tossing my seeds, not concerned with where they land.....

Barry and I are talking about buying a bed and breakfast/healing center. He discovered this weekend that there may be a different path for us. We are starting to research it, kinda narrowing it down to where and how and what and possibilities. I know down in my bones that it is the right path for me. Or at least some variation of it. I feel as if I am meant to create a sanctuary for healing, a place for people to let down their every day selves and be held in warmth and comfort. Mmmm, yoga and energy healing and warm tea and fire....I can see it all. Stay tuned.....