Up and down, round and round...

What a crazy whirlwind.  But I think I got it all figured out.  All the hoopla la la was simply a distraction.  Isn't it always?  The more I could be driven to distraction by crazy ups and downs, the less I would think about my surgery tomorrow.  Sort of like that last year of high school when your kid is behaving so badly college doesn't seem like it could be far enough away.

So tomorrow at 6:50am I embark upon a enforced vacation.  It's kind of weird to think that I'm electing to be cut open and possibly be in pain and/or sick.  Feels unnatural to sign forms that say, oh yes, please cut me open and remove that silly old body part that's not working anyway. 

I woke up this morning breathing heavy from a bad dream.  I dreamt I went to the hospital for my surgery and they said they couldn't take the gallbladder til I took a stress test.  I had to ride on a bike to show that I was fit.  I had no problem doing it and they put me on the table for the surgery.  As the anesthesiologist is putting me under, the doctor tells me I have to have heart surgery while they are at it cause I flunked the stress test.  I woke up yelling, "are you KIDDING me? what's next?"

Crazy things, dreams.  Then I get my daily message from God: 

On this day of your life, Linda, I believe God wants you to know...


...that there is a family reunion awaiting you, and you will be more overjoyed than you can now begin to imagine.

On the day you leave your body -- what I like to call your Continuation Day -- you will be greeted by everyone you have ever loved in any way for any reason...and, standing in front of the group, every person who has been so very dear to you. It will be a grand and glorious reunion, with joy and laughter and pure wonderment filling every heart and soul!


This has also been experienced by everyone who has ever left here -- all those who have gone before you -- of course. So do not grieve for them. They are so very happy! I'm not sure why you were meant to hear this on this particular day...but I bet you are...

Ummm... WTH?  You ever think God just has the greatest sense of humor ever?  Like, stroking His beard chuckling, "oh that Linda, she thinks she's so in control, so great with that Reiki energy stuff... let's mess with her a bit... she can take it" Sigh.

I'm ready to go to quiet time mode.  No decisions, no talking, no thinking... just blissful no-thingness.  Hope I don't throw up. Just sayin'

TTYS,L