Impatience

This is the worst time of year for my patience. I LOVE Spring. I can't resist raking off the leaves in my gardens, seeing all the new shoots coming up, remembering what's where and being surprised at the new volunteers. I want to get out there.... dig and divide... prune and plant...create and cultivate...NOW! The plants in my house need to get out NOW. They are barely holding on, they need water and wind... time to GOOOO!

I need to sit out on the grass, wind blowing through my hair, watching the cherry willow sway and the daffodils bobbing their heads and leaning to the sun. I need to listen to the birds without their songs being muffled by my windows. I look at my hands, all clean and with long white fingernails and I can't identify them.. they need to have perpetual dirt under them... these are not my fingernails.

My schedule has been nuts lately. Good nuts. But nuts. On Sunday, I had about 10 minutes where I was outside. It was warm, almost balmy. I quickly grabbed my pruners and hand rake and went to town (much to the dismay of my husband who had just cleared all the path in front of the gardens only to turn around and find them covered again). Cataloging in my head "oh my the hollyhock are comin up, you need to cut back those weeds of sharon, time to decide what to do about that honeysuckle, lordy look at all the phlox, where's my sage?, should I pull that trumpet vine closer?, wow, that curly willow is 3 feet bigger, how is that possible?, liriope needs a serious haircut....

Just a taste but it has wet my appetite. And now I can't think of anything else. I need out there. NOW. And I am so torn today. A very dear friend has discovered that I, after living in the DC area for 48 years, have never once seen the cherry blossoms. She is stunned. And insisting on taking me there. Today. Now, part of me is feeling so blessed... what a great friend! The other part of me... the one looking down on these clean fingernails... is saying "DUDE, it's sunny! I need to get out there! NOW! I'm sure those cherry blossoms can't be nearly as impressive as the one in my front yard!"

But I hear they are fairly impressive. And she is one of my bestest friends. And I know the minute I get there I will be awed, inspired and thinking I was nuts to even consider not going. And it really is a tad bit too early to rip apart all my gardens right now and throw all my indoor plants out. Errrrgh! Warmth! I need warmth!!! NOW!

Sigh. Patience...young grasshopper...