Balance

I have been working on balance. No, not physically, other than that sharp wind from the left in the Sanctuary trying to knock me over, my physical balance is good. It's the emotional balancing that tends to get a bit tricky.

Learning to navigate the work, family, self, show, friends, river is very challenging for me. I have often said I have the opposite of ADD-- I can only focus on one thing at a time and it tends to consume me. I have to really drag myself from my task once I'm in it and get very irritated when I am interrupted. This was quite a pickle when the kids were little and we had 2 dogs, 2 cats, 2 rabbits, 2 guinea pigs, 100 fish and in and out foster children. There was no such thing as focus. I couldn't even focus in the bathroom... sometimes I would open the door to find the whole lot of them standing there looking at me impatiently.

Ok, well, maybe not the fish. But the rest of them!

Since the occupants of my home have dwindled down, I have had more opportunities to focus. But because it is my life's task to learn to structure (according to that book) I have scattered my own energies, diversifying and making the attempt to balance all my "stuff".

Currently I am working on:

Evening at CCPC
Getting my jewelry stock back up & filling custom orders
Private & Group Yoga classes
Gathering people and info for the next play
Reiki Appts.
SoulCollage workshops
My newsletter
Preparing for the Space Launch trip
Keeping in contact w/my daughter in NC
Helping my son here with sliced fingers and future planning
Email, email, email
Dragging my self off Facebook & Twitter
Tarot readings
Sending Reiki energy to the World Peace grids
Watering my poor dying plants
Cleaning my wretched house by Thursday for the yoga classes here
Attempting to talk w/my husband while trying to keep up with the never ending DVR overload
My own yoga/meditation/reading practice Ha.
Blogging, sha right.
Making myself exercise for an hour every day

It doesn't help that I tend to go off on one tangent and get stuck (facebookers, can you hear me?) and then have to perform crisis management to catch the rest up. I keep thinking I should organize by the hour.... this hour for this, that hour for that, this day, that day... it seems a bit overwhelming. Which is why I am frequently writing my newsletter at midnight.

Sometimes it seems as if a 9-5 job would be such a vacation. But I love, love, love what I am doing. I have met the coolest people and have felt the most amazing energy (last night was unbelievable) I wouldn't trade my life for a million dollars.

Well. Maybe parts of it.

Remember the principles of balance: Focus. Allow yourself to sway, don't try and hold still, balance is fluid. Empty completely into one side without leaning. Keep the core strong.... OH.... that's the one I missed.

Talk to you soon. Love ya!