Mercury Retrograde

Yep, that's right. It's a Mercury Retrograde. Now, I joke about this in yoga all the time--it's sort of the catch all excuse for being unable to balance, being late, missing phone calls.... We can't be responsible for what happens during a Mercury Retrograde....

Now, I'm not going to go into what a Mercury Retrograde is here because God knows, it'll somehow get screwed up because of the MR but here's a link if you'd like to know more: http://www.skyscript.co.uk/merc_ret.html

Part of me believes this stuff, part of me is cynical but some of me has seen and felt way too many things to count it out. I realized this morning that I was attempting to call the MR hogwash while superstitiously trying to make sure none of my appliances break. But then it dawned on me... some people call an MR a "do over" or a chance to re-visit issues that need some work, that weren't complete...

Hmmm. Yep. Boy oh boy am I re-visiting issues right now. I'm in the middle of putting on a show. It's sort of like plopping me straight down in the middle of how a huge part of my life was spent a couple years ago. Without all the drama. Or well, without a lot of the drama. And fairly, without me creating all my drama by over reacting to others drama. But I feel it.... I feel the triggers. And I am spending some time staying very present to those triggers and trying to keep perspective so I don't react to them.

I am staying & feeling very positive about this show. It has been amazing how helpful and excited everyone is. The creativity is astounding-- and it has been really FUN. I miss hanging out, giggling and coming up with outlandish ideas.

They say the definition of insanity is to do the same thing over and over and expect different results. Not only am I diligently avoiding doing the same things... I am trying very hard to understand that others may not be aware of this definition and are just conditioned to think things need to be the way they were... not as they are. That seems like the way to handle a MR. Be mature enough to understand that others are experiencing it too so there's no need to take it personally.

I wonder when a MR will come and I will be so maturely enlightened that I won't have to revisit the same insecurities I have faced my whole life? Don't answer that. Course, it probably wouldn't be so tough if I wasn't having to re-visit all my other issues at the same time. Like my bunny going back to school. And the same stuck conflict that rules my world. And those damn tree cutters being back.

Daggone Mercury.