Scheduling Destiny

My schedule is a bit twisted. I can't seem to find the blog time like I used to. Although I did find time to read a book so... time is just an excuse I'm afraid. Think about it. How many times have you said, "oh, I wish I could ________ but I just can't seem to find the time." Usually said while you are out at dinner or watching tv or something that maybe wasn't all that necessary in the long run. Truth is we find time for what we WANT to do. That's the truth. And sometimes for what we HAVE to do. Which is really just another way of doing what we want to do.

Not that I don't want to blog. Just that I have other things pressing first. And maybe that's the second insight about time. Sort of like things coming up in a Que or rotating through, we make time sometimes for some things and then later take that time away to do something else. Like read a book. Which feels decadent. TV watching? Not so much. Why is that?

I try really hard to catch myself when I play the "I don't have time for _______" game. It's so easy to play though. Everyone's doing it. You begin to feel like something's wrong with you if you do have time. I guard my time. Religiously. And semi-faithfully. I know what I'm like if I don't have that don't haveta time. It's an ugly thing.

Taking up my time right now mostly is herbs. I am tickled to death that people are actually buying my herbal products. It's a long standing dream of mine, putzing in my gardens, drying herbs all over the place, rosemary, mint & lavender up to my armpits, life is GOOOD!!!! I found a source for flax seed last night and got 50 pounds of it! I have all kinds of potions brewing and I ordered a bunch of beautiful blue bottles to put them in. Oh, I am in heaven right now. My house smells like a cacophony and every where you turn are little projects I am working on. Now, if only I had the time.....

Time to focus, of course. I have a horoscope book that states your destiny. My destiny is Structure. Now, that means that the Universe will provide me with lots of opportunity to perfect my destiny. The meditation for someone with my destiny:

The secret to concentration is the acceptance of endless distractions.

The suggestion for my destiny:

Think of information as a tool. Realize that decision making is about putting all considerations into perspective. Don't feel overwhelmed. Get organized! Take one step at a time.

No kidding. Sometimes the irony of my destiny amuses me. So, someone who has trouble with distraction and feeling overwhelmed and disorganized chooses a career that is nothing but distraction and impossible organization. I mean, I work a bit in the morning, shift to another form of work in the afternoon and shift back in the evening without ever having a clue how many, who or what.....

I've said it before and I'll say it again. God must have a tremendous sense of humor. And I think I may be an endless source of amusement. Considering I have rarely spent more than a month with the same schedule in my life.... it must be quite comical.

Oh well. I will try and get organized and find more time to blog. Now, what to give up? I know!!!

The bathrooms are on their own. I apologize in advance.