Reiki Share

At the Share today:
21 People.
14 Reiki Healers.
5 Reiki Masters.

How is that possible? Barry has said over and over again during this journey... Linda. If you build it, they will come.  If you build it... 

Wow. It's built. They are coming. I am amazed.  I've been doing this for years, have had small successes, small failures, big mountaintop moments, crushing stressed out moments, times when I've had to really just trust... times when I've thrown it all in.  The one thing I have really had to learn is that I create my own destiny.  For many years, I was unsure. I had trouble committing to this path, worried that it wouldn't work, worried that I didn't have the energy, worried that, well, that I would build it and they wouldn't come.

For years, they have come. Through all my wishy washy-ness, they have come.  Even when I've pushed them away, whether intentionally or unintentionally, they have come. They have taught me so much more than I have ever taught them. A year ago, I made a decision to commit.  I realized that by trying so hard to stay small, I was making myself small. Marianne Williamson says our real fear is not that we are inadequate... it's that we are powerful beyond belief. Wise woman.

When I turned 49, it dawned on me that if I didn't build it now.. it wouldn't be built. It hit me that I wasn't doing anyone a favor by staying small. Many people supported me and kept giving me messages of encouragement. I started looking for new ways... new places.. a new partner. We built it.  And they are coming.  It's beautiful, wonderful, magical. And hopefully, not fleeting.  So much is still up in the air.  So much uncertainty. 21 people.  Where were they? And where will they go if we can't stay? Where will we go?

Trust. Keep showing up. Keep putting it out there. Smile. And most important, BELIEVE. James says I don't realize how much support I have, how many people believe in me. He's right. I don't. But I'm learning.

All shall be well. May the healing Light be with you. Namaste'

and once I get through this...

I'm in the 'I gotta get through this and then' game.  You know the one.  Life takes a turn for the busy. You start running a bit quicker, jazzing up, trying to get more done in a shorter amount of time, thinking that as soon as you complete that one task, you will have time to rest. Barry has teased me for years about my false sense of schedule clearing after "this next week". It's been super crazy with stuff stacking up on top of each other. Mostly laundry.

Don't get me wrong. I love it. I intended it. It's on my vision board.  But woooo weeeeee its been hectic. Thank God some of it is stress management practices LOL. It's easy to be hectic when the activities include Ki Gong, Meditation, Reiki, Yoga & SoulCollage.  I mean, seriously, how bad could it be?  But it has been crazy trying to plan and prepare for the next thing. And the next.  But after this week, it gets better. hahahahhahahahaha

Just kidding.  I think I come up for air on March... 20?  I dunno. Hey. I'll sleep when I'm dead, right?

Floridahhhh

Here's my vacation.  See if you can spot all the things that happened. (sort of where's waldoish? or i spy?)

Ron & Jenny's coconut tree got a coconut. Or something.
We went on the boat.
We went to Jupiter.
We saw the space shuttle (50 extra points if you find the trail)
The pelicans were watching too.
Sasha did not like her harness. (video coming soon)
We went to Butterfly World. (also videoed)
We went to GaunaBuanas, The Cove (twice), Square Grouper, The Greek Place, Bar Louie, Bru's Room (twice in different cities), Little Havana, Duffy's, Alabama Joes, Omelette's R Us (not really), Key Lime House & Apicurus sp? Jenny & Ron like to eat out :)
We made up a new drinking game in the flagged garage.
We played trivia outside and in.
Barry won.
We found our dream house, 10 times.
Watched a pelican eat a fish sideways.
Watched a lizard eat a butterfly :(
We went to a flea market. Not impressed.
We had coffee on the lanai. Every morning. Very impressive.
Barry & I went for a walk in their neighborhood and got lost. (Seriously)
I did yoga on the boat while it was cruising down the ICW.  Brave warrior with the wind whipping my hair back yeeeee!
We played Wii.
I attuned Jenny.
Jenny did Reiki on me :)
Watched Social Network.
The weather was GORGEOUS. The whole week.

All in all, a wonderful winter interlude.  Come home to sunshine and started a fire. Life is good.

A trip around my world

I'm not overly fond of snow.
Or cold.
It makes me grumpy.
I want to be outside without my shoulders up to my ears.
Or shivering.
I don't like the wetness on the bottoms of my pants.
Cause I'm short.
And then I can't tuck my feet up without getting my pants wet up higher.
The whiteness irritates me.
I'm all about green.
I don't like the desert as much either.
Too much brown.
Unless you find an oasis of green.
Then I love the desert.
As I write this it started snowing again.
Almost as if to mock me.
Which is another reason not to like snow.
It makes you irrational.

My fingernails are clean.
Which is a bad sign for seasonal depression.
I must get my hands in dirt regularly or things get dicey.
And I don't mean dust.
Of which there is no shortage of in my home.
Because of the stupid cold.
Which creates the stupid furnace to run constantly.
Which blows the dust around.
And is starting to sound like a jet engine taking off.
Which must be a bad sign.
If I was on a jet that sounded like that I would get my parachute ready.
That squeaking can't be good.
And my brother the HVAC dude is still angry at me.
Over a text message 5 years ago.
Technology is bad.

But not as bad as winter.
Just saying.

What a longggg, strange trip it's been.

In an hour I go teach my first paying yoga class at my new studio.  The last paying yoga class I taught there was in 2002 ( I think) It was to 4 year olds, therapeutic nursery school kids.  They didn't pay but I worked for the nursery school that did.  I can't remember their names per se, but I do hear their voices.  I remember the hugs, the tears, the laughter and the screaming.  I can see some of their faces, the joy on them as they balanced in tree, the frustration when they didn't.  I see the first time they could close their eyes for a second, knowing they were safe... usually by the end of the school year, sadly.

The room that I spent the last few years of my teaching children career is now my yoga studio. It would be very hard to tell that it was ever the rainy day room for 3 nursery schools.  It's beautiful, serene.. a calming space.  A far cry from the last 20 years in that spot.  The final preps for the first class in that room involved my daughter, who also taught there, and I, remembering the time out spots and sending distant Reiki Healing to the past. With my new partner we joined hands and said prayers of healing and reconciliation, vowing to honor their voices and create lasting peace.

The weekend was a whirlwind of excitement and emotion.  Many, many friends dropped by and marveled at the transformation. So many kind words were spoken about how happy folks are that we are staying at CCPC, that we are shepherding a new era for the education building.  I feel as if my cup has indeed runneth over.  I am making myself feel it is real, even through the sense of surrealness... I am continuing to breathe even though I feel like holding my breath, holding on to this moment. I almost afraid to go to the class today, for fear no one will come.. that it really was just a dream... that I have now woken up and will have to try to convince people to lay on the cold Sanctuary floor and lug my stuff from here to there and back again.

I'm happy to get back to work.  I'm happy that the search for a home is over.  I'm thrilled that I have landed back where I started. I am blessed to be able to bring healing where it is so desperately needed.

Happy New Year,  Jenny, David, Tarik, Malik, Gianni, Shannon, Robbie, Cassidy and all the rest of you beautiful children, where ever you are...