I am so excited. People are signing up for our SoulCollage Retreat December 1st! People we don't know! Off the website!!! Yay!!! and Phew! Maybe we will be okay! I love SoulCollage. Have I mentioned that? I mean, seriously, it is just such a neat, relaxing thing to do. For those that can't make it to yoga or Reiki it can be a really fun, spiritual thing to do and I was starting to get very worried that no one was gonna do it. I really sort of wanted to throw my eggs in this basket, you know? So when it was seeming a bit dismal, I was not sure where I was gonna throw my eggs.....maybe at houses....or..? Again, sometimes I'm a silly goose. With extra eggs.
Here's my latest card:
I don't know. It started as a "I'm going to try and not hate money anymore thing" and kept evolving. The people look happy and wealthy. Or is it obsessed? I thought maybe the cards indicated luck? And the monkeys? Maybe something about the monkey mind worrying about the lack of money. I really am not sure. I can guarantee I will find out though. The card will come up in a reading and then I'll get it.
I know that one of the biggest things I had to overcome was de-valuing myself. For a long time I didn't charge at all for yoga--just gave it away. I have negative feelings about money, don't want it or the lack of it to control me. I like giving. I purposely have always chosen non profit enterprises as if that will somehow make me better than the rich people with college educations. I have come to realize that it really just makes me more worried and yes...I'll admit it...envious. Barry & I have struggled for a long time, on and off. It's hard to start off adulthood without the benefits of a college education or financial backing. We've made some choices we are proud of, like putting the children first, making sure one of us was always there to take care of them and not day care but we also have a recurrent fear of losing everything we've worked for. We were doing fine and then recently have had some major setbacks and that tends to revive all the old fears and worries and resentments and our Ziggy/Charlie Brown syndrome. We are really trying to remember that the Universe is Abundant, we create our own reality and hating money will ensure that we never have any. It's a major opportunity to test our faith and see how far we've come...as we bite our nails. LOL!
This card seems to have all those opposing yin/yang things in it. "I am the One who wants to like money?" "I am the One who doesn't want the money monkey on my back."
I don't know. What do you think?
