Suddenly, the house is quiet. It seems empty. The light is dimmer. Was it really just 3 years ago that my baby went off to college? How is it possible that she is a Senior? It's kind of hard to wrap my mind around.
Everything is always a bit more exciting when shes around, and this summer was exceptionally so. It's wild to think that 3 years ago she was counting the days til school ended and this year she was counting the days so she could get back. She loves Montreat. She intends to stay there. So much so that she overcame the last hurdle to adulthood, her final fear so to speak.
She came home this summer determined to get her drivers license. For a multitude of reasons, she hadn't gotten it before, the largest being fear, the smallest being time. This new adult came home, booked her own class and set herself a goal of getting the license before July 1. She got a bit sidetracked when her best friend scooped her up for a road trip.... and then of course, there was the whole issue of a car for her to drive... but the worst was trying to get an appointment to take the stupid test! After she finished drivers ed, and driving with the instructor which went from coming home bursting into tears over how hard it was to drive around here.. to complete confidence over how easy it was for her to parallel park.. and we worked a deal to help her buy a cute little red car.. she signed up online for her appointment. In Salisbury. Which is about 2 hours away. Why? Because they had the first available appointment, 5 weeks (!) away AND they were the only place that had an appointment BEFORE she had to leave to go back to school. 3 days later.
Talk about pressure. Here she has this cute little red car... which may become OUR cute little red car if she failed the test. She's not coming home again til November since she's planned a road trip to Florida for fall break... (an aside: wth? she's not coming home? who IS this person?) So, we had 5 weeks to stew over what would happen if she couldn't drive to school. And when could we get her back here so she could retake the test? My stomach hurts over the thought of it all. I sent more Reiki on Thursday as she was taking the test than I think I ever have.... but, as with everything else, I should have had confidence in this new adult. She has amazing determination. And the ability to withstand pressure and thrive. She has matured, no more shrinking violet here... She was gonna do it and she did.
So, she just drove off in her cute little red car. Full of bubbling excitement and anticipation over going home. To her new home. To the life she has created for herself. Where she is an adult, with great friends and 2 great jobs and a busy, active lifestyle. To camp and hike and kayak and learn. Everything I have wished for her is coming true.
I forgot to wish for it happening a bit closer to home.
"All your life you've never seen a woman taken by the wind...." Rhiannon~Stevie Nicks
2 comments:
Letting go is the hardest part of love. She is a beautiful young woman, an answer to all those prayers you have prayed. You should be very proud of her - and it's ok to shed a few tears too.
Love you.
I love you :-)
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