I get up in the morning, pour my coffee, do my morning pages if I am so inclined and start my day. Used to be a slow start, maybe blog a bit, get ready for my first class or begin to clean the wreckage. A long while ago I would spend time "putzing", my favorite thing to do; make some jewelry, cut some herbs and rubber band them for drying, rearrange my furniture... whatever struck my fancy. Seems like life has taken a dramatic turn in the last year, and I'm not sure exactly why.
You ever have that happen? Like, you wake up and you realize that you have drifted far from normal? So far from normal that you are not sure what it was? How did I have time before to make tons of stuff, do my classes, give my Reiki healing and squeeze in a play here and there? Seriously, I am looking at my regular calendar and trying to figure out what changed... I'm still teaching 7 classes a week, doing SoulCollage once a month, averaging 1-2 Reiki clients a week, hosting a Reiki Share once a month. The only new things are the girls SoulCollage which is just once a month and an occasional tarot party or attunement workshop, not anything large.
I know in the last couple months there have been some extraordinary events that have added stuff to my schedule- my surgery for example. That ate up a ton of time with drs. appts. and tests, and I am really stunned at how low my energy level is. I feel fine, no pain, but I am dragging. I find that by my 3rd class I am ready to sleep, my poor old body feels like just that.... old. But it's only been 2 weeks, I'm certain that will improve dramatically with time. Of course, while this was going on I had the other out of the ordinary task of trying to find a location to open a yoga and wellness center... no big deal, right?
Oh my word. What a shock this little curve on my journey has been. Talk about eating up time. Lawyers, accountants and realtors, oh my! Zoning and covenants, rules and regulations, fees and deposits... it's crazy out there! You have to have nerves of steel, a mind that can be focused and a heart that will keep fueling your passion even when you are discouraged. We found one place that we LOVED, but the covenants didn't allow us, we saw another place that was ok but the realtor refused to call back with the info... another place that seemed like it would work great even though it would cost 4 times the amount we budgeted, until there was a murder across the street. Another place smelled bad and seemed shady. Many places want over $10,000.00 a month... even though they have sat vacant for YEARS. One shopping center had 6 places to offer, the only real attractive one has a corporation paying a $35 a sq. ft. rent on it... even though they no longer live there. The most reasonable one has a greasy fast food place right next door..not exactly yoga friendly. Discouraged and on a whim, I call a place I looked at 3 years ago... with a different partner.
We LOVED, LOVED, LOVED it. Great deal. Reasonable rent and landlord. Love the location, love the space, full of possibilities but not for the faint of heart. Perfect for our vision but not exactly practical. (Cuz, yeah, my vision would be practical.. ha!) Would be perfect for building community, hosting lots of practitioners, creating a place to relax and put your feet up, after a ton of work of course. Yesterday, our realtor brought us to the perfect place for a practical vision. Very professional. Rent is fine. Location is safe. Lots of glass. But we didn't love it. What a predicament. I'm thinking we should settle for it. But it would be that. Settling. The other place seems crazy by comparison. Why would you go there when this is just sitting here, ripe for the taking. Requires no up front work, can open by Jan. 1, no new skill sets to learn.. just teach and heal, don't even need to make a lot of new stuff as retail would be insignificant.
The other place will be a HUGE challenge. We'd have to have a big retail. We'd want to have a coffee/tea shop. We have to build walls and put in new plumbing. The work is daunting. And exciting. Ugh. This will not be the first time I wished to be more Melanie than Scarlett. It's so hard for me to work hard for something regular.... but put a challenge in front of me and the fire comes out. The scary part is that I am figuring out that my partner is just as crazy as I am. I thought she was the voice of reason-- ha! Last night I looked deep in her eyes and saw that same fire, oh dear. If we pull this off, it will be the most amazing feat ever. If we don't, the crash and burn will be fierce. Any normal person would not get excited bout that. But oh.. the dreams! Everything I (we) have dreamed of! It's crazy...
CRAZY GOOD.
Right?
Yikes.
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You can think about some of this tomorrow ;)
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