Recently on facebook, I have received a number of friend requests from old boyfriends... and I mean OLD boyfriends... my 5th grade sweetie, 7th grade and so on. It's kinda bizarre, I'm not gonna lie. I am ecstatic to see them, to see how their life turned out, if they are married, have kids and whether they still have hair or not. But it's very strange to think that they are doing the same thing. BTW, I do have my hair still, thanks for asking. I no longer weigh 95 pounds though...in case you are wondering. I see that you do not either :)
When I was a kid, I was a huge flirt. HUGE. No boy could escape, LOL, whether I liked them or not. It was important that they like me... overly important. I was such a silly girl. It's so weird to see their names popping up on my feed and think of who we were... and who I am now. It literally feels like another lifetime. The things that are important to me now have nothing to do with what was important to me then. Thank God. It's interesting to think that my friends who know me now would not recognize the friend that they knew and vice versa. And not just physically... on every level, mentally, spiritually, it's sorta mind blowing.
We were all such great friends. The whole gang is resurrecting, slowly but surely. And I realize how little we actually knew each other. I realize how little I actually knew myself. But these friends, boys and girls, were my lifeline long before Regis Philbin made that popular. I feel great affection for them. I smile seeing their names, remembering...Fox Hill Elementary...Tasker Jr. High...Bowie... seriously, is this what they mean by past lives? Seems like soooo long ago. 40 years ago in fact.
It's funny seeing their profiles though. As much as I treasured them, saw them as family, I am stunned by seeing some of their particulars, who they've become (I'm sure they feel exactly the same about me). Their political affiliations... where they work.. the groups they join... YIKES... really? Never saw that as a kid. In fact, I am surprised that I even dated a couple of them... could we really be THAT different in ideology? Did we even have an ideology? LOL, I'm sure that word never even crossed our minds as we spent hours on the telephone, sneaking cigarettes in the breezeway, giggling and chasing each other... why is that so important now? I guess it's just all states of consciousness... we stopped worrying about who we were and started worrying about the world we live in.
Facebook is a strange world. Sometimes it hurts my wee little brain trying to take it all in... so many lifetimes coming together all at once. I guess it's a beautiful lesson in integration.
But it's Monday. I can't think this hard. Have a great week everyone!
5 comments:
I'm still waiting for the day when friends from different circles will know each other, and not through me.
Facebook is a strange world indeed. It's kind of fun to realize that some of those things that used to be so important to me are no longer. We were a lot alike in the things you described about yourself. LOL Mom called me Boy Crazy!
This is one of the reasons I'm not on Facebook. If I really wanted to be in touch with these people, I would have been in touch all along.
Besides, it seems to me that "finding" these old boyfriends/girlfriends often leads to trouble, even if unintended. How many relationships end up on the rocks because of an online affair?
Lisa, my mom used to say the same thing :)
just me, I used to say that too, which is why I never went to my high school reunions, however, I have found it very fun to have my curiosity about my old gang satisfied in a less intrusive way. In other words, I don't intend for them to be part of my day to day world, but as part of a grander picture... sort of like an epilogue at the end of a book that never ends.
As far as an online affair, seeing some of their profiles has only reinforced what a great choice I made LOL.
Oh and Anne, I have already seen that happen... and it's kinda weird.
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