ssshhhhh

It's so quiet in my house. Like the silence is thundering. And unusual. It hasn't been this quiet in my house for years. Yesterday I just kinda wandered around resisting the impulse to turn on loud music or worse, sitcoms with laugh tracks that drive me nuts. It's even stranger because it's really quiet outside too since all the kiddies went back to school... my ears are ringing.

When I started this journey of spirituality, this silence was healing, soothing, a rarity in my life. I grew up in a very noisy household-- tv in every room turned up loud all day, radios, yelling... it took me a long time to get used to and comfortable with silence. When both of my kids were in school at the same time (years and years ago) and I stopped working full time, there was a brief period of time that this was my norm. And I loved it. And I thrived and became me. There's a sense of familiarity about this silence but it's almost like it happened in another life. It certainly has nothing to do with the last couple years of my life.

It feels weird. I'm not sure what to do with it. I did a little planting, a little cleaning, a little organizing, basically going back and forth to my computer to see if she was on and did she get her package??!!! and she was on but she was busy!? and isn't that wonderful but wow, isn't it QUIET around here??? Wonder when Cory gets home from school and work?

I will get used to it. I will thrive and grow and become me again. I need to give myself some time to listen for the stillness and the be-ing. It's right. And will be a wonderful gift. Once I get used to it. I can't wait to see where it takes me.

Sssshhhh....