I have come to realize that you can give me 50 days off in a row and I will STILL not get organized.
I have come to realize that I may be WAY too hard on myself.
And others.
I have come to realize that I just am over keeping a clean house. So over.
I have come to realize that I will never be a size 5 again.
I have come to realize that your children will always need you. And vice versa.
I have come to realize that no matter how many times I say never again it usually isn't.
I have come to realize that sometimes you just have to say your piece. Right or wrong.
I have come to realize that sitting and watching the birds and clouds is a direct gift from God.
I have come to realize that making mistakes is not all that. Living with them, however, is a much harder task.
I have come to realize that you do not get your brains until you are 30. Trust me. I've been there, done that. And I wouldn't have believed it either.
I have come to realize that most people go out of their way to sabotage. Themselves mostly.
I have come to realize that most rules are silly. And created to fulfill the above realization.
I have come to realize that believe it or not, I am loved. Flaws and all. And I love. Even with flaws. Wow. This ones a biggie.
I have come to realize that sometimes you just gotta cut yourself some slack. And others too.
Isn't being a grown up COOL????
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Quick Wrap Up
Packed in as much as you can into one weekend again.
Had the SoulCollage Card Play which was really fun. We had some new people and they were so entertaining! They fit right in.
Saturday was a blur of actually putting some food into our house. Ugh. BJ's & Safeway in one day. Oh and the parade. I love those Bolivian dancers! Sue has a picture of it on her blog.
Sunday we went to church! It was youth sunday and the youth were amazing. My daughter sang her favorite song "Amazing Grace" in her favorite way... Gospel ... and without bragging I can honestly say she was amazing. What grace. We are blessed.
So on Monday we got to have some balance. She went out and got a tattoo. Now, while I do not condone her marring her beautiful skin that I religiously slathered sun block and lotion on to protect... it is a pretty tattoo. Says "Faith" and has a flower. I mean, really, how can you get mad at a kid who tattooes "Faith" on her arm? I secretly like the idea of her having a constant reminder when things are challenging but reallly....a tattoo? You should have heard my Dad the Marine when he found out. Who has tattoos all over his arms. But that's for boys.....
Let's see if I can show you a picture:
Had the SoulCollage Card Play which was really fun. We had some new people and they were so entertaining! They fit right in.
Saturday was a blur of actually putting some food into our house. Ugh. BJ's & Safeway in one day. Oh and the parade. I love those Bolivian dancers! Sue has a picture of it on her blog.
Sunday we went to church! It was youth sunday and the youth were amazing. My daughter sang her favorite song "Amazing Grace" in her favorite way... Gospel ... and without bragging I can honestly say she was amazing. What grace. We are blessed.
So on Monday we got to have some balance. She went out and got a tattoo. Now, while I do not condone her marring her beautiful skin that I religiously slathered sun block and lotion on to protect... it is a pretty tattoo. Says "Faith" and has a flower. I mean, really, how can you get mad at a kid who tattooes "Faith" on her arm? I secretly like the idea of her having a constant reminder when things are challenging but reallly....a tattoo? You should have heard my Dad the Marine when he found out. Who has tattoos all over his arms. But that's for boys.....
Let's see if I can show you a picture:
Ai yi yi....
Built a new deck for Rhia's party (and secretly...for yoga YAY!) Had my 2 of my favorite girlies over. All in all, action packed. And it's just getting started....
TTYS. LY. Bubye.
PS. Allison--send me your email address so I can send you something...
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Alanis Morrisette Is A Prophet
How's this for irony?
When we were doing Children of Eden 2 years ago (really?!) there was a big push for wanting Jesus Christ Superstar to be the next play. When we were doing Into the Woods, every time I walked in a room "the band" would start playing the opening riff to Heaven on their Minds... ba bum bah bam bam bam bammmmm.... I tried to get the rights to do JCS last year but they were doing a national revival tour with Ted Neely, the original Jesus on Broadway.. which just sounds funny. BTW, if you didn't see it you missed a very old man flying above the stage in a diaper. In fact, he was so old that in the death scene we all started to become quite concerned that it was a bit too real, if you know what I mean. But as usual, I have digressed....
Cory REALLY wanted us to do JCS. He practiced Heaven on their Minds for a year. Every morning in the shower. Loudly. Jeeeeeeessssssssssuuuuuuuuuuuuusssssssssss!!!!!!!
He and Mario and Paul and Steven and Susan and James were crushed when we couldn't secure the rights. In fact, that was the number one reason I wrote Love Song so at least we could do a couple songs to pacify them. When the band was practicing, they would call Cory in to sing Heaven on their Minds cause it's such a hard song and he could nail it. Course he refused to do the show. And Rhia, she HATED JCS. Did not want anything to do with it. Wanted to be Sweet Mary, Mother of Christ.
When Rhia was a little girl she would get angry at her Barbies and rip their heads off. She would squash their heads back on so they had no neck and call them "Judy". Whenever someone made her mad she would point her finger at them and spit out "you...you... JUDY!!!" It was quite funny. She would wear a flaming orange wig to the grocery store and then get angry if anyone noticed her... "they are just JUDYs!" Mind you, she was 2 years old at the time.
Anyway, everyone wanted JCS to be next but I've been on sabbatical and was not sure I wanted to do anything heavy. Been thinking Alice in Wonderland or Willy Wonka.. I mean, how far away from JCS can you get??? In the meantime, PGSTT, another theater company that both my kids have worked with decides to do JCS. And gets the rights. Which I have to admit was a bit disconcerting... I always sort of thought we would get around to it eventually. So where's the irony?
Rhia decides to audition.
And Rhia gets Judas.
And gets to sing Heaven on their Minds.
And I guess since she's a girl the name will have to change.
Yep. Judy.
This cracks me up. But a further irony?
She's gonna play the betrayer of Christ and then go off to a Presbyterian college. With a tattoo.
Life is kinda funny, dontcha think?
It's like raiiiiiinnnnnn on your wedding day, it's a free ride when you already paid.... it's good advice that you just didn't take....
I don't think Cory is overly thrilled. Oh well. Maybe he'll do Alice in Wonderland with me. LOL!
When we were doing Children of Eden 2 years ago (really?!) there was a big push for wanting Jesus Christ Superstar to be the next play. When we were doing Into the Woods, every time I walked in a room "the band" would start playing the opening riff to Heaven on their Minds... ba bum bah bam bam bam bammmmm.... I tried to get the rights to do JCS last year but they were doing a national revival tour with Ted Neely, the original Jesus on Broadway.. which just sounds funny. BTW, if you didn't see it you missed a very old man flying above the stage in a diaper. In fact, he was so old that in the death scene we all started to become quite concerned that it was a bit too real, if you know what I mean. But as usual, I have digressed....
Cory REALLY wanted us to do JCS. He practiced Heaven on their Minds for a year. Every morning in the shower. Loudly. Jeeeeeeessssssssssuuuuuuuuuuuuusssssssssss!!!!!!!
He and Mario and Paul and Steven and Susan and James were crushed when we couldn't secure the rights. In fact, that was the number one reason I wrote Love Song so at least we could do a couple songs to pacify them. When the band was practicing, they would call Cory in to sing Heaven on their Minds cause it's such a hard song and he could nail it. Course he refused to do the show. And Rhia, she HATED JCS. Did not want anything to do with it. Wanted to be Sweet Mary, Mother of Christ.
When Rhia was a little girl she would get angry at her Barbies and rip their heads off. She would squash their heads back on so they had no neck and call them "Judy". Whenever someone made her mad she would point her finger at them and spit out "you...you... JUDY!!!" It was quite funny. She would wear a flaming orange wig to the grocery store and then get angry if anyone noticed her... "they are just JUDYs!" Mind you, she was 2 years old at the time.
Anyway, everyone wanted JCS to be next but I've been on sabbatical and was not sure I wanted to do anything heavy. Been thinking Alice in Wonderland or Willy Wonka.. I mean, how far away from JCS can you get??? In the meantime, PGSTT, another theater company that both my kids have worked with decides to do JCS. And gets the rights. Which I have to admit was a bit disconcerting... I always sort of thought we would get around to it eventually. So where's the irony?
Rhia decides to audition.
And Rhia gets Judas.
And gets to sing Heaven on their Minds.
And I guess since she's a girl the name will have to change.
Yep. Judy.
This cracks me up. But a further irony?
She's gonna play the betrayer of Christ and then go off to a Presbyterian college. With a tattoo.
Life is kinda funny, dontcha think?
It's like raiiiiiinnnnnn on your wedding day, it's a free ride when you already paid.... it's good advice that you just didn't take....
I don't think Cory is overly thrilled. Oh well. Maybe he'll do Alice in Wonderland with me. LOL!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
My Golden Haired Boy is 50....
So, my husband turned 50 today. That seems a bit unbelievable to me. How did he get so old? Especially when I haven't.... LOL! 50. OMG. 50. He will be very happy knowing that I am freaking out about him turning 50.
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Anyway, I will try and drop the subject cause he seems a bit touchy about it. You know how 50 year old men can be.
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So here's what I saw this weekend:
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Happy Birthday Honey!
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Age is just a surreal thing, ain't it? You really don't feel any older than you did when you weren't.
`Anyway, I will try and drop the subject cause he seems a bit touchy about it. You know how 50 year old men can be.
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So here's what I saw this weekend:
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Happy Birthday Honey!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Beware of Freecyclers
Ugh. What a wretched day I had yesterday. I have a bunch of stuff I want to give away. I hate the thought of throwing away perfectly good stuff, especially books, ESPECIALLY children's books. So I put out my first notice on Free-cycle. Well, I think I had put one out years ago that turned into a circus of someone wanting me to hold something and then never showing up. Anyway. I got back a bazillion requests for the books. It felt a bit overwhelming since I sort of had a lot to do. So I made a mistake.
I put an open offer for first come, first served.
You would think I took a gun and just starting shooting. First the moderator lamblasts me, basically calling me stupid. Then ALL the people who wanted the damn books start emailing me telling me how unfair I am and how their not going to waste their time driving by my house to see if the FREE books are still there. And they call me environmentally un-friendly. ME!
Now I realize that what I did was maybe not thought all the way through. And being a newbie at this, I guess I did not understand the whole game of whoever emails first, I'm supposed to hold the stuff and then waste my time re-posting if they don't show up after holding onto the stuff for a couple more days. And oh dear, I suppose putting your address on the internet is not really that great of an idea even though nowadays you could pretty much google anyone and find their address. I'm sure if some mad book stealers find out where I live and that I have books.....
Now, I realize that I am over-reacting mainly because:
1. I hate to make mistakes that I feel stupid about.
2. I have unreasonable fear occasionally.
3. I was raised by blue collar people with sunburns on their necks who understand the meaning of opening a six pack of whoop ass.
But I am hoping I have grown beyond a lot of that and am not allowing that ego nonsense to rule my life. However, I think that perhaps these people need some perspective. As in:
1. The books were free. You did not own them so you don't have to freak out that you lost them.
2. The rules say you have to live in Bowie so it's not like you are going that far out of your way to look and see if the FREE books are still there.
3. Jeez, I made a mistake, get over yourselves, why are you so willing to pounce? Is this how you spend your days?
Okay, now that I have that out of my system.....I will return you to your regularly scheduled spiritual network. Please forgive me if you are a wonderful free-cycler who just has the best intentions....would you like some free books?
Deep Cleansing Breath and Release.
I put an open offer for first come, first served.
You would think I took a gun and just starting shooting. First the moderator lamblasts me, basically calling me stupid. Then ALL the people who wanted the damn books start emailing me telling me how unfair I am and how their not going to waste their time driving by my house to see if the FREE books are still there. And they call me environmentally un-friendly. ME!
Now I realize that what I did was maybe not thought all the way through. And being a newbie at this, I guess I did not understand the whole game of whoever emails first, I'm supposed to hold the stuff and then waste my time re-posting if they don't show up after holding onto the stuff for a couple more days. And oh dear, I suppose putting your address on the internet is not really that great of an idea even though nowadays you could pretty much google anyone and find their address. I'm sure if some mad book stealers find out where I live and that I have books.....
Now, I realize that I am over-reacting mainly because:
1. I hate to make mistakes that I feel stupid about.
2. I have unreasonable fear occasionally.
3. I was raised by blue collar people with sunburns on their necks who understand the meaning of opening a six pack of whoop ass.
But I am hoping I have grown beyond a lot of that and am not allowing that ego nonsense to rule my life. However, I think that perhaps these people need some perspective. As in:
1. The books were free. You did not own them so you don't have to freak out that you lost them.
2. The rules say you have to live in Bowie so it's not like you are going that far out of your way to look and see if the FREE books are still there.
3. Jeez, I made a mistake, get over yourselves, why are you so willing to pounce? Is this how you spend your days?
Okay, now that I have that out of my system.....I will return you to your regularly scheduled spiritual network. Please forgive me if you are a wonderful free-cycler who just has the best intentions....would you like some free books?
Deep Cleansing Breath and Release.
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